I can't believe it's almost 1:00! I have been so busy today; I'm surprised my head is still attached to my body. Even though work is kicking my ass like a UFC event, I'm having a wonderful day. It's a beautiful day outside, although hot as hell! Houston surely doesn't know how to act when it comes to this heat. My mind feels more at ease today, which is good, because today is the first day back to Comcast. I wonder what awaits me when I get there. Which customers will rip me a new one tonight? Ha! I don't care, today they can't break me, phase me; as a matter of fact they can blow me!
Aquarius - June 4, 2008
Today is a fantastic day for you to take action, dear Aquarius. Your eagerness to strike out on new territory is being heightened by a drive to experience the new and unknown. Take an internal journey and see what kind of wonderful things you can discover. There is a tremendous strength inside you that does not always get a chance to show itself. This is the perfect day to prove your courage to the world.
Hm, new territory huh? I hope that does not mean a new female. I'm not in the mood, loll. I have been talking to a couple of nice girls the past week or so. I have a feeling it won't go anywhere though. The slightest thing turns me off, because I've grown so accustom to myself. My standards are pretty high now days. I just don't want to settle for less yet again! Today's words could mean anything, but as long as it gives me the feeling of newness, I'm down for it. I really feel that June is going to be a good month period. May was so blah; June just has to go well for me.
Back to work...grrr!!
For some reason I woke up a little disturbed. You know how you have a situation with someone where all you both can do is agree to disagree? Unfortunately, that does not stop you from still being pissed off about it. It's true that somethings we just don't have the power to do on our own. There are two way streets in friendships and relationships. I have been dealing with the fact that for going on 2 months now, I have been still making someone a priority when it comes to my thoughts, when I am painfully aware of the fact that I'm an option in their thoughts. I have always been a late reactor when it comes to my emotions. Some shit can go down and I'll be as calm as the sea, a week later I'm mad as hell, loll. I don't know why it takes things so long to phase me, if they phase me at all. I just have learned my lesson with jumping to conclusion and getting mad over ridiculous shit, so I just remain calm and peep the scene before I decide to show any emotion.
Aquarius - June 3, 2008
There is some tension in the air today, dear Aquarius. Even though none of it is your doing, you may want to keep a rather low profile, especially if you need to work. Try to avoid getting into any kind of discussions. Just because someone gets confrontational does not mean that you have to take the bait. It would be much better if you did not. Keep to yourself and tomorrow all of this will have blown over. It will be safe to start mingling with others again.
I pray every morning, and I ask God for patience, but sometimes Him and I just don't see eye to eye on this whole time thing. I try not to question His timing, but of course as a human I want things done right then and there. It hardly ever happens that way, but oddly enough, it happens at the right time. On the drive to work this morning, I tried to escape my angry thoughts to no prevail. I have no doubt in my mind that today will be a good day. I took a flex day off from Comcast tonight; which I think was a good idea for more reasons than one.
So today I shall avoid confrontation and try not to go off on anyone, loll. Even though I did shed a few tears this morning, I'm smiling. I'm jamming my Chrisette Michelle and I'm going to try to get through this huge pile of CRAP on my desk. If anyone does happen to come at me out the side of their neck today, I'll just roll with the punches.
"The only real voyage of discovery consists not in seeing new landscapes, but in having new eyes, in seeing the universe with the eyes of another, of hundreds of others, in seeing the hundreds of universes that each of them sees."
- Marcel Proust
I've voiced many times on how much of a people person I am NOT, but how I love the study of people. I find humans to be very interesting, because there are so many different characters, personalities, and cultures out there to explore. Each person has their own perspective on life and things in life. That is intriguing within itself. Take the blog world for instance; I will sit and read so many blogs throughout my day and some of them happen to be on the same topics, but the opinions and perspectives are different. Each person may learn a different lesson with the same situation. That peaks my interest.
When I see art; I sit and I think about how I view it and what that particular piece brings forth out of me, but also what others may be seeing when they look at it. This goes with poetry, and music as well. The human brain is amazing and it is so powerful. Sometimes I look at newborn babies and I wonder what their personality will be like. What will they believe in? I wonder what their first thoughts were when they opened their eyes in this big scary world. Unfortunately my memory does not go back that far, loll.
It would be so dull to just look at things from one perspective. Explore. Looking at things from how other's may look at them has helped me to become more understanding and has helped me to be more patient. This voyage of discovery has been great thus far. There are so many more things in my life that will be introduced to me and so many people whose perception I will borrow to help me understand them. Something I surely look forward to.
Damn, I can't believe it is June already! We are half way through this year! 6 months away from being 2009, 6 months away from reaching my 5 year anniversary at my company, and 7 months away from being 25 yrs old. Yes, time is definitely flying this year. Even after all the crazy things that has happened thus far, I am still enjoying this year nonetheless. I am still excited about what other blessings are coming my way. This month's quote is about Solitude. This is truly right up my alley, because I am a person that is use to secluding myself from the world to gather my mental and concentrate on my spiritual. James Russell Lowell 's words are chosen for this month.
"Solitude is a needful to the imagination as society is wholesome for the character." - James Russell Lowell
I'm going to have to retaliate to the ladder part of Lowell's words and use the words of John Milton, "Solitude sometimes is the best society." I honestly think that society is at times detrimental to the character, especially in today's age. However, it is that solitude in our personal lives that can lift us above and beyond our everyday problems and the camped box that society tries to place us in. I try to take as much time as I possibly can to just sit and think about my life; past, present and future. Where have I been that has gotten me to the place I am today? Where will the place I am today lead me to in my future? I sometimes sit at Memorial Park at my favorite bench right in the middle of the park and just stare into the skies and think. I watch the people bicycling and running around the park, the kids playing, the families grilling food and it all uplifts my senses. It is there that I begin to appreciate the simple things in life and thank the Creator for all things.
Sometimes I let the things in my everyday life swallow me whole. I get lost in other people's problems as well as my own problems. I get so caught up that I forget to recognize my possible blessings in life. When I take those mental vacations, it is there that I become more clear, wise and mature in my thinking. Such deliberate, intense and uninterrupted thought brought clarity to the perception I held of myself and my life.
It's funny how people pick up on positive vibes. I go on my mental vacations; returning rejuvenated with my maturity level at an all time high and I subconsciously give people around me permission to do the same. They recognize the changes within me. All of my days are not peaceful nonetheless, but the more older I become the less and less I worry about those irrelevant things. I've mastered the task of letting go. Something so simple, but yet so difficult. Thank you Lord for giving me the power and determination to do so. I let Him do his job with no complaints. He's better at it anyway, loll.
Solitude at times has to be forced when the road gets rough, and that is okay. Do not fight it; sit down and think. Let your mind kick into overdrive and become trapped into the realms you've never explored before. It'll be well worth it, trust me.
I may have to take a trip back to the park this month. Maybe a couple of times, to just sit at my favorite bench and let the rejuvenation begin.
Sometimes I let the things in my everyday life swallow me whole. I get lost in other people's problems as well as my own problems. I get so caught up that I forget to recognize my possible blessings in life. When I take those mental vacations, it is there that I become more clear, wise and mature in my thinking. Such deliberate, intense and uninterrupted thought brought clarity to the perception I held of myself and my life.
It's funny how people pick up on positive vibes. I go on my mental vacations; returning rejuvenated with my maturity level at an all time high and I subconsciously give people around me permission to do the same. They recognize the changes within me. All of my days are not peaceful nonetheless, but the more older I become the less and less I worry about those irrelevant things. I've mastered the task of letting go. Something so simple, but yet so difficult. Thank you Lord for giving me the power and determination to do so. I let Him do his job with no complaints. He's better at it anyway, loll.
Solitude at times has to be forced when the road gets rough, and that is okay. Do not fight it; sit down and think. Let your mind kick into overdrive and become trapped into the realms you've never explored before. It'll be well worth it, trust me.
I may have to take a trip back to the park this month. Maybe a couple of times, to just sit at my favorite bench and let the rejuvenation begin.
Aquarius - June 1, 2008
There could be a tough lesson in store for you today, dear Aquarius. More than likely, the harder it hits you, the more of a message it is that you need to hear. Indeed, it is important for you to accept failure gracefully. It could be that the one who kicks you when you are down will also be the one who helps you get up. There are strange twists to this day that you may not be expecting. Take things in stride.
Hmm...I wonder what this could mean. Perhaps I should pray, loll. I guess I will learn the meaning behind this one when the day comes to an end.
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