Tgif ya'll! It's been a rather rainy day, but it has gone well all the same. I would say that this week has been a life altering one. I think that every week should be, honestly speaking. If we don't learn something each day and have some type of personal growth, what have we done with our time? When people ask me "Mica, how have you been?" Or "Mica, what have you been up to?" I don't even have enough time to reply. Truth of the matter is that I've been up to so much. I am living life accordingly with the changes made in my personal growth. As routine as I am, my life is forever changing.

I have accepted another lesson in love and in life this week. Acceptance is my life's task and I am willing to accept just that. I came to realize that I am my own soul mate and that the romantic relationships that I get involved in are merely compliments to what I have built within already.

To the ones that passed through my life this week; thank you. I appreciate the lessons you've taught me. You will not be forgotten, because your teachings will be carried forth through me. Thank you.

So, on to the weekend baby!! My family reunion is tomorrow and I am sort of looking forward to it. I am not going to lie, I just want some good food ya'll. Man oh man! I have taken a vacation day off on Monday and I plan to visit with a couple friends, do some shopping and cleaning. Its off to the movies with my friends to see Mirrors; starring Robin Thicke's fine ass wife. So expect a movie review, ya'll know how I do.

I wish everyone a well weekend ahead and to be safe. Oh and drive slow homie; folks getting pulled over! I can testify!

So my big sister who is 15 years my senior needs a place to stay until she gets on her feet. I feel bad right now because I don't want her to stay with me. I know it sounds harsh, but I have my reasons. Let me explain.

Now I am technically an only child by my mother and was raised in the house the only child as well. My dad had 2 kids by his first wife whom were both over 12 yrs older than me. I really did not get to know them until I got older, they both got married, had kids and I was living my own life. My brother was murdered in '98 and that left me and my sis. We still did not become close after that. It was not until her and her husband of 11 yrs divorced and she moved back to the States from Germany. She and her 2 kids moved in with my parents and I.

I was stoked my big sis and my babies were going to be there. We all grew close over the years. The kids moved back in with their dad and it seems like everything just went down from there.

You know how its just hard for some people to get back on their feet when they fall down? My sis is one of them. My family and I love her so much and help in any way we can, we just don't know when things will get better.

When I moved out of my parents house and was getting reaady to sign my first lease; I signed a one year 2 bedroom 2 bathroom lease for both me and my sister , because she didn't have anywhere to go. The very next day she changed her mind for a reason I still do not know of and there I was stuck out with the rent and that big ass apartment alone. For an entire year! Hence the reason why I had to get this second job I am at this very second.

She went on to live with a friend for over a year and now the friend wants her out. The friend feels that my sis could have made moves by now and I agree. After I moved from my last place and found my cozy one bedroom one bath dream apartment, now she REALLY needs a place to stay.

I am just disappointed that the woman whom I should be looking up to can't seem 2 get it together. I am the baby sis and people, as well as myself, forget that she is 15 years older than me.

What can I do though? She is family and she needs me. She already said she would be needing to "crash" until August 31st. I pray that it does not take that long, because I cannot do this for longer than that.

So I am sitting here under the dyer at the beauty shop upset because I was hoping to be out of here by 10:00. I mean afterall I did get here at 7:30 am. I am tired and cranky. That is my fault though. I did not go to sleep until well after 3:00 am. I was in my Betty Crocker role; caking on the phone all hours of the night with this new chick I met. Yet another Taurus, but she seems nice. I won't get my hopes up though.

It seems like this day may never end for me though. I have so many things to accomplish today, and it just isn't enough hours to do them in before I have to go to work at 5:00. I have my Mom, Grandma, Aunt, and Cousin coming to visit me tomorrow before we all go to church and dinner. So that means I have some serious cleaning to do before the inspectors arrive at 11:00 tomorrow morning. The last thing I need after a week like this is to have my Mother and my Aunt tag teaming me about keeping a clean house. Truth of the matter is; nothing is ever 100% clean in their eyes, so I am not going to break my back trying to please them.

I really just want to go home and go back to bed after I leave this shop to be honest. But no its off to Wal-Mart, then the bank, then to pay my rent, then a full day of cleaning, and finally a 4 hour work shift at that horrific call center! Think I can sneak in a nap somewhere in there? Doubt it.

May 31, 2008

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

"There's so much to accomplish early in the day that you could lose sight of how to enjoy yourself. Don't try to do everything all at once. Remember, what you don't finish now can be completed in a day or two. Finding a manageable balance between work and play can make all the difference in the world."

I really need to get my ass somewhere and sit down. Mentally I am tired. Physically I am tired. I figure I will save my vacation days for when my niece and nephew come down and use the time to relax as well. Leave both of those jobs alone for an entire week. This one day off a week is not cutting it. Until then I will hang in there.

It's 10:00 and I am still under this hot ass dryer! I don't even want a style. All I need for her to do is take these rollers out, wrap me up, and I'm out! Let me go right now, because the shop is filling up!

Enjoy your weekend!