I love this damn Ne-Yo song. I'm bittersweet about the lyrics though. Bitter only, because I've felt exactly how he delivered the words in this song. I've been in love so deep, where my mind was all fucked up. Every ounce of common sense I owned went out the window. Every answer to every question of why was ignored, because I didn't want to deal with the truth. I couldn't handle the truth. However, I knew the truth. Situations like this in life bite. However, it happens to the best of us.

Sometimes you know people are lying, but you just go along with it. I feel that people lie for a reason. Insecurities of the truth, and the way they think people will handle their reality haunts them. So they lie. Terrible excuse, but we've all done it. You're lying right now if you say you haven't. My thing is some folks take it much to far. I get a lot of these outrageous, make believe stories from people online mostly. There are people in my everyday life that do the same thing, but not so much.

In my past I've been in relationships where I know my mate was lying. Covering up things perhaps about their past, but we all know that it comes to the light sooner or later. I'm not a naive person, so just because I listen to bullshit, doesn't mean I believe it. I take everything in, and a lot of things I take in go straight to the junk folder. From there it is permanently deleted. Oh but the lies keep coming.

I guess if I'm going to keep this blog open, I might as well re-do the page. I can't say that I feel like it, because I don't feel like doing much of anything lately. My weekend was pretty blah. Everything has been one big blur, perhaps too many tears caused by my fears. I spent time with my family yesterday, and although my mother was in a world of her own, I still enjoyed myself. I realize that they are all I have in this world. The only ones who actually back me up. There is no one else. No real friends anymore, just associates who conveniently place me at the bottom of the barrel. They allow me to surface to the top when all else fails. I am their last resort. Gotta love that shit right? Loll. That's the story of my life though, so I guess I can't say that I'm surprised by any of it. For some reason the person that I am attracts to these types of people. That means that something within me has to change. Right now, it is what it is. I feel like I'm all doped up, so if I begin to ramble, my bad. I'm not even operating with a clear head right now.

I wouldn't mind getting in my Chevy right now, riding out on a long stretch of highway to wherever it leads me. I'll drop my problems out my window one by one as the wind flows through my fingers. I wouldn't even care about my hair getting messed up, loll. Now that is serious. I'd ride by to see my girl and tell her thank you for picking up the slack for the past few months where these so called friends left off. I'd explain to her that I have to keep riding, alone, but I'll be back. Man that sounds sweet, too bad I'm stuck in this hell hole on yet another Monday, trying to make a buck. Fuck!

January 26, 2008 - Aquarius

As happy as you are to be going where you are going right now, not everyone is right there on the same page with you. While you must be aware of it and make adjustments accordingly, you don't have to completely change your path -- that will only cause you to feel resentment. Just tone things down a bit. Spend and act more modestly, and don't be too outgoing with your energy. You could end up overwhelming those folks who still need some time to catch up with you.

Happy is not in my vocabulary today, but perhaps content is. Nobody has been on my same page in a long time. Loll, I say a long time like someone has actually been on it before. Different pages, in a different book, found in a different library, in a different language, on a different planet. I could be waiting a million lifetimes for someone to catch up. Clearly, I don't have that kind of time. I feel like over the years I've altered myself so much for worthless people. I've held my tongue, I've dumbed myself down, I've thrown a blanket over my beliefs and personal normalities (no matter how weird they are). That hasn't gotten me anywhere or anything, but more heartache and permanent loneliness. I won't lie and say that I don't feel resentment, because I do. I'm mad as hell right now. Not at anyone in particular, but more at myself. I can't be mad at anyone who isn't thinking twice about me. I'm mad at myself for actually expecting them to think once about me. That's my fault.

I can be an overwhelming person, so I do try to come off as modest. I give myself in small doses. I sit back and I observe the world. I stand in the middle of the freeway during rush hour traffic looking at all the selfish faces of the humans speeding by me. Honestly, if the world actually slowed down, I might actually get hit standing in the middle of that freeway. I've never been able to blend in. I don't want the attention, and that’s why I never cared to have a bunch of friends. The more people you have in a circle, the more opportunity for drama, and the more pressure to blend in with them. When you see one, you see them all. I'll pass. One good friend is all I need. On my path, perhaps I'll smash into that person along the way. On the same page, in the same book, in the same language, in the same library. We don't even have to be from the same planet. We shall see…

I hope this week goes by fast. I need the time off work that I have coming up next month. I might use that time to actually go on that solo road trip. That would be a great way to spend my birthday. If I can cop my Nikon before then, I'll take a crap load of pics on wherever that road leads me. The great thing about walking my life's path alone, is that I honestly see how beautiful life truly is. I see things from a different perspective without any distractions from others. The only thing that sucks….when my path ends; nobody will cry at my funeral. Just give me hit after hit so I can stay high off life alone. The reality of it all bites, and the end appears closer than what it actually is.

I just put Step Brothers on my iPod yesterday, and it was the first time I saw it. It was super hilarious. Champ said she hated it and only laughed twice during the entire movie. The parts that she laughed at weren't even funny though. Smh @ that. She mad silly though, and obviously ass backwards if she didn't find this movie funny. She be doing shit just like these clowns, lmaoo. Will Pharell is an ass of all trades though.

Last night somebody question who was calling my house phone at 2 a.m. Man, it made me realize that I haven't been questioned like that in a long time. It was…..cute.

So I've been hanging out with people that I haven't hung out with in what seems like ages. I had narrowed down my hanging out with friends down to just one person. That's unhealthy, loll. Although, all of my acquaintances are not residing on the same planet as I, we still have fun when we get together. I'm going to re-vamp my social life in the new year. I've been in hiding for about 6 or 7 months.

Besides when I cop this Nikon D90 as my 25th birthday present to myself come February, I'm going to need to eject myself from my cozy little apartment and snapshot the happenings in life. Hell for that kidna money, I'll be taking pics 24/7!! The Paparazzi won't have shit on Nookie.

I've come to find out that I'm a little too selfish to date women with kids. I never considered myself to be an attention whore. However, for one I'm not a fan of kids and two, they need too damn much. Don't get me twisted though, I don’t despise them; and if I find worth in the woman, I'll love her and her child or children, no doubt about it. Besides the M.I.L.F's make it kinda hard to discriminate, ya dig?

I'm super excited about this movie. I'm a big Marvel Comics fan. I also love me some Wolverine!! I will have to find my wayward, and now missing big sister so we can go see this when it comes out. Hopefully she'll turn up come May 1st.

I LOVE everybody's blog that I follow. I know I keep saying this over and over, but ya'll never cease to amaze me with the shit you guys publish. Creative, intelligently opinionated, comical, fashionable and ambitious are all understatements for each and every one of ya'll. I wish that I could sit around all day and keep up with every single blog ya'll produce, but man it's impossible. I had to designate Sunday as my day to just catch up with all the blogs. Ya'll do THE MOST!

People be sleeping on BlogSpot though. I learn new shit everyday. I mean just yesterday I traveled to the far lands of Jervis and learned that Lil' Kim was now a yellow bone. I for one was shocked, because I hadn't seen her in a minute. She's following in MJ's footsteps, and it's a crying shame to say the least!

Yo, it's this Hispanic fruit lady that comes up to our job every morning around 11:00 and she sales all kinds of fruits, tacos, burritos, and freshly squeezed fruit juices. Mami, be making a KILLING!! I swear one day, she going to pull up to this bitch in a drop top Bentley. She already had an extreme make over. I didn’t know who she was. I been buying fruit everyday, lmaoo. I wonder if she is hiring.

So, I've been reading Sista Souljah's book Midnight. I swear it make a chick want to mingle with the Sudanese and become a Arabic speaking Muslim. This shit is a bit far fetched, and I really thought it would have just a little something to do with The Coldest Winter Ever. It's an alright book though.

Word to life; I miss my Queen Bea. I didn't get a chance to go see her on Sunday. Her or my daddy. I miss both of them. This Sunday, despite their so called "busy schedules", I'll be forcing them to lay in the bed like we use to do and watch movies. They need to sit down somewhere anyway! I'm sick of this! How dare my parents have lives! Loll, I kid. They can have lives, so they won't be all up in my shit!

I remember laying up with my folks trying to convince my daddy to let me go to England with them. Back then, my mom could get like half price on international flights or something like that. All I know, is that The Queen said, hell no you can't go, loll. So I had to use my charm on daddy. After dropping a grand alone on my ticket, guess who was mingling with the British folks for seven days? Eventually, I want to return the favor. Pay for all of our way to some place out of the country. One day man, one day.

Peace ya'll

When I was driving to 'The Caster' from my first job it was extremely cold outside. It was raining, and I saw a little light layer of ice falling from the sky. I really thought it would ease up by the time I got to work and got off tonight. But when I got off, I found my car in this condition.

Yo, it ain't much, but for we Texans; it was enough to get excited about!! I'm saying though, I'm trying to get a snow day tomorrow and stay my ass at home!!

I just had the worse cup of coffee in my life this morning. Never ever try vanilla spiced rum creamer. Omg!

Yesterday evening seemed like it would never end. It was like pitch black outside come 6:00. I was waiting for C.S.I Miami to come on for hours and hours on end! Of course when it came on, I went straight to sleep. Needless to say, I'll be catching the full episode on CBS.com tonight at work.

I really need to start really writing again. I feel like I have completely fallen off over the past couple of months. I need to pick back up on my online short stores. The Nikki Memoirs and The Cure. People were actually following those, and I have let them down. I'm sorry!

It's funny how Ms. Jamaica sees me and won't say two words to me now. Well, that's a two way street, she knows that I don¢t have anything to say to her either. However, she tells a mutual friend of ours that she acted like an asshole toward me, but she won't apologize. Mmkay. It's nice to know that it's okay to portray the characteristics of a seven year old now days. That's a Sagittarius for you though.

I really need to go get my oil changed and my breaks fixed. I have put it off long enough. I just hate dealing with car stuff! Ugh!

I think "sour puss" finally got the hint and decided to hit the bricks. I know I was hard on her, but some people just don't understand where you are coming from until you talk to them crazy. I'm sure she's a great girl, but just not the girl for me. I wish her well, but Mica has got to go! Peace.

So me and my crew have decided to plan our first trip to Vegas this Spring. I hope they follow through with it. I have been wanting to go to Vegas for as long as I can remember. I was suppose to go for my 21st birthday, but um clearly that was years ago and I never made it. So perhaps for my 25th we can get this right. I want one of those "what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas" stories NOT to tell!

David Banner is an idiot. The end.

I'm not feeling this month's bloggers book club selection; White Lines. Urban lit just does not tickle my tit. The fact that it takes major drug lords, prostitution, and flashy project living to get black people to read irks me. The whole Triple Crown Production series of urban books makes my skin crawl. Although, I don¢t think White Lines is a TCP book, but still. I'm going to try and suck this up and read anyway.

I am sitting her freezing my behind off at The Caster. I swear these people act like it's 100 degrees year round. I am bringing my ear muffs and mittens tomorrow, just like I did last year. I will be on the phone 2 hours trying to type with those mittens, but that beats being frost bitten. Wow, today was so ugh for me! It's the end of the month, so of course the work is rolling in faster and heavier than the money. We all know how that goes. I am not feeling the workload, but of course I'm sucking it up and, just doing my job. I can make it until Friday, so no need to complain.


On a lighter note, the call volume here at The Caster has gone down tremendously. This is why I'm able to sit here and write this blog, loll. Oh and dig this, your girl just got kudos from a customer for my sufficient explanation of her bill! Yeah see, I'm not always slick at the mouth, loll. Somebody once again decided to dissect my character and so called "tell me about myself." Of course, this is something I just don't worry about anymore. I ignore the hatred and keep on doing what I'm suppose to be doing, which is being me. I saw a status message one of my co-workers up here has on her messenger, and it reads as follows:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

Real talk right? Yeah, I was feeling this quote, and had to hit her up on it. Words so true, and this is the exact reason why the soul clenching friends in my life accept me 100%. I love them for it! To everybody else, YOU JUST DON'T MATTER, SO YOU CAN STOP THAT CHATTER!!

Man oh man. What a day; Tuesday. Of course all fucked up things happen to me on Tuesdays, so this Tuesday wouldn't be any different right? Right. I was out sick from work yesterday with stomach issues. So I stayed my black behind at home, because puking all day is not the business while at work. Today started off pretty good, and you know to be honest it ended well too despite of the events that occurred.

I've read plenty of my blog peep's posts about blog filtering and watching what they say. Well today I was called out about some things I wrote in my blog. Not by a friend or a family member, but people that I work with. It was bought to the management's attention that I wrote a blog about the company about a month ago. I actually deleted the blog, because I agreed with a couple points brought up during the meeting. However, I won't sugarcoat or filter anything that I say in my blog. I now know that I have more people reading my blog than I thought I did, and hey the only thing I can say is WELCOME! I'm not writing anything in here that I'm trying to hide or that I fear getting out. Everything that I write here is a part of me and the woman that I am today. Can't apologize for that. For writing blogs on the company's time and revealing the company's name; yes I'll sincerely apologize for that, as I did. Anything else will just have to be dealt with.

I prayed about the situation after everything was laid out, I thanked God for keeping my cool and that things did not turn out worse than they did. I ended up having a good day actually. The call volume at Comcast has gone down tremendously. It's still busy and people are still pissed off about their cable outages, but hey I still had a good one. I can't stress enough that life is all about how we digest things. I just make sure that I keep a smile on my face. The S-n-S crew also known as the search and snitch crew felt they were doing their job I guess. We all know haters are always on top of it right? I'm not even mad about it though man. I'm not changing my style nor do I plan on not exercising my freedom of speech and expression. POINT. BLANK. PERIOD.

So just to let all my readers know I will definitely be keeping up with your posts and commenting. It will just be done later in the day. For my anonymous readers; I LOVE YA!! MUAHHH!!

It's really good to be back with electricity, water and life back to normal again. I feel so indescribable right now. Despite the fact that I'm freezing cold in this office; I feel like a heavy weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I found out some pretty fucked up information last night about the woman I've given myself emotionally to for the past few months. I won't go into detail, because I am about to light fire to her ass when the time is just right. However I do know that she has been lying to me all of this time. Lying to everybody for that matter. She is not who she says she is and is a total fraud. The recent stunts that she has pulled has caused her to be ejected from my heart to the fiery pits of my ass. Harsh, I know; but when you've been shitted on by a fake ass person, you'd feel the same way. I know one thing, it pays to be good friends with hacking white boys who find out information on people just for kicks. I got everything from one IP address that one can think of. It's scary when I think about it, because it really isn't that hard to find out where a person lives, their DL number, their employment address and any online history dating back 3 months, and the list goes on. I'll stop here. Don't get me started on what can be found out in emails either. Honestly, this makes me want to sign off and never sign back on. However, I needed to know some truth to this fucked up situation and I got it. *In my Eminem voice* "I know something about youuuu.." Now I can kill whoever this person is inside of my head. I'm satisfied. Oh and don't get it twisted, I'm no hacker, I just had to dissect this broad. I don’t make a habit out of this. So nobody be alarmed, I don’t want to know anything about ya'll. My duty is done.

Sometimes my life can be sooooo, wow. I attract some really crazy and dramatic people. There is never a dull moment in my life and each day brings on another set of bizarre events. I applaud myself, because I handle them well. I find the silver lining in every cloud and make sure I keep smiling through it all. Bottom line is I always come out on top. Double crossing me ironically only causes you to dig your own grave. I'll ruin a person's whole life, repent and wake up smiling the next morning. Forgive me for my honesty.

My scope told me to use today's initiatives and take advantage of the atmosphere to put together a realistic plan for my future. The rewards will be great. I have been living in la la land for the past few months and riding on a hopeless lie. I just got one rude awakening and now I have to catch up. I have to work double time to happily be face to face with my reality. Last night while I was sitting at home masterminding as usual, I was thinking about my next steps in life. From love to career to friends to school to family to religion. I feel like I have accomplished a lot in this year, but I still have a bit more to go as far as my goals are concerned. I'm going to put the whole love thing back on the shelf wayyyyy in the back again. That is only a distraction for me anyway. Gosh, this is going to be an awesome week. Last week was kind of shitty, due to that wack ass hurricane and the aftermath, but I'm excited about this week. Already I've pulled somebody's cards, got a super bonus at work, got my electricity back and it's only TUESDAY!!

Expect a lot of blogs this week. Shit only 4 people read this shit anyway, loll.

This week is going by just the way I want it to; super fast. Monday starts my much needed vacation from both jobs and I can't wait to do…nothing. I've been reading my blogs for the past two months or so and it's no secret that I've been struggling with same issues in my life. That's people, acceptance, love and trust. I'm not even going to lie, I'm getting on my own nerves, loll. I feel a hiatus coming on and it's coming faster than Hurricane Ike. I might need this time to escape into my mental mansion and just reside in peace and quiet.

Yesterday I found myself banging my head up against a brick wall. After hearing nothing but my own echo, I realized that no one was listening to me. I started to feel the pain in my head from the banging. It was then that I understood that it was just time to shut up. I'm going to continue on this love journey, but at this time I just need to do it in silence and listen. I'm always talking and trying to go above and beyond with making sure that everything is working properly. I feel like I'm working in vain, so let me just shut up and drive.



My friend Regina use to tell me all the time that closed mouths don't get fed and I began to live by those words. Every time a problem would erupt I would break my neck to try and communicate through the issue and rectify that problem. Come up with solutions so that the problem won't occur again. I would make the necessary changes within myself to eliminate the problem as well. I do believe that problems are only made by us and our attitudes towards such problems. If we really want to work through it, that’s what exactly is needed…WORK. However, in some problems caused by two people, it takes 2 people to fix it. When only 1 person is putting the weight of the problem on their back alone and trying to do everything in their power to fix it, nothing will work. The only thing that will happen is that person growing so tired that they just give up.

I've carried so many problems on my back that weren't even my own. I take the slack for a lot of things that happen, because I know that I can handle it and I know exactly where to throw it in order to keep the peace. I can't do that anymore though. I'm tired of talking and not being heard, I'm tired of working and not being acknowledged, I'm tired of not being met half way and I'm tired of beating to everyone's drum just to keep them happy. The world is a selfish place man and I use to be soooooo part of that selfish bandwagon. Everything was always about me and it was always my way or the highway. There was never any question about it. No conversation needed, I thought what I wanted and when I wanted. I disregarded everyone's feelings with no remorse. I don't want to go back that route, but I do know that me being they way that I am today is only causing me to crash into brick walls.

I don’t know, but for right now I'm just going to remain silent and listen. Maybe somebody will start talking so that I can hear what's on the other side of that wall. I'm pretty disgusted this morning, but I do pray that my day gets better and that God will guide me through this point in my life like He has done with every other point.

Maxwell - Sumthin' Sumthin' (Mellosmooth Remix)
From the Love Jones Soundtrack

2. What is your drag name?

Probably "Nookie". People call me that anyway. T. Nookie baby!!

3. In the film made of your life, who will play you?

I would have to say Da Brat, because it's no secret that I am a tomboy and a lesbian. I love the fact that she is versatile and can look good either tomboyish or feminine. Yeah baby I rock both sides! Making me an awesome me! One of a kind! Oh and plus she's hot!!!

OR

Shane (Kathering Moeing) from The L Word. This girl has HELLA swagger. She's no lipstick lesbian, but she sure does bang a lot of them! I love this woman. Although she's the wrong skin tone, I think she'd play an awesome ME. Which can be good or bad, loll. Depending on how you look at it.

OR

Queen Latifah!! Another versatile woman. I love her in anything she plays in. Well, I'm lying, because she's played in some wack shit. However, I'd give her a shot at playing me.

OR

Ellen! She's hilarious and her style is impeccable. Who doesn't love Ellen? Say you don't and I'll shoot cha! Ellen gets "hyphy" and I love her!

4. What is one thing that you would change about yourself?

Ugh. Need I say more. Somebody sign me up for the nearest 24 hour fitness with the quickness. 2009 is all I can say. Fuck starting now, I need at least 6 months to mentally prepare. May the force be with me!

5. What's your status message on your preferred networking site?

I don't get on Facebook much. So my status message says "what are you doing now?"

The status message on my Myspace says: "She word hustles is mad that she won't get to see her niece and nephew this summer. Or so it seems". I haven't updated this status in ages either. I guess my Myspace game fell off!! Ah well.

Bring on the next survey! I love doing these!

Listening to Lil' Wayne early in the morning is never a good idea. I'm convinced, and although his lyrics are a bit redundant and somewhat played, he's still capable of giving the lowest person some ounce of self-esteem. He's a hilarious young man, I must say, and I needed the laughs this morning as I headed into work. I'm now stuck in what proves to be the longest week of my f'n life! It's finally hump day though, and I'm happy about it.

So I've read plenty of blogs published by people on my blog roll and they've all mentioned how surprised they are when they find out that certain ones are reading their posts. Or how fast a specific post spread as if it was an AIDS epidemic in DC. Truth be told, you never really know how many eyes are on your words, but the question is; should I care? Should I filter what I say to spare the feelings of the sensitive ones that may be reading? Should I apologize after every single blog written? I honestly don't think so. I use my blog as a therapy session for some of my most personal feelings. Although, I will admit that sometimes I use my blog as a vice for my everyday frustrations. It's either that, or go on small killing sprees. And, "I'd rather be pushing flowers, than to be in the pen sharing showers."

Damn, it seems like it was Friday just 20 minutes ago, and now here we are back again on Monday. Days, weeks, months and years are running into one another, it seems and it's a bit hard to keep up. Goodness, I see why old people forget what day it is. I told someone yesterday that it was Saturday, not realizing that I had to be back in the office this morning. So here I am. I had a pretty good weekend and had great time spending it with family and friends.

So, getting to the point at hand. I realized this weekend that I was not quite finished swapping out the worthless people in my life. I've tried this patience thing, but it doesn't seem to be working for me. Having patience for young minded, common sense lacking, spacey, world class fuck-ups seems to be impossible for me. I gave the benefit of the doubt, because I realize that young people are a little unsure of themselves and some even have trouble forming complete sentences let alone a complete thought, but goodness. I lowered the bar for some and they still tripped over that muthafucka and fell flat on their faces. Poor things were in over their heads with this one. I had a talk with my big sister yesterday while sitting down at dinner and she told me to stop wasting my time on these worthless people who can't bring anything to the table. If all they are bringing are chewed up Barbie-doll heads and half empty Libby's juicy juice boxes; I can't really expect them to be on the same page as I am. Not even in the same book, hell they might not even be able to read yet for all I know. So from here on out, I vow to stop playing the role of the teacher for these kids and await for a person to finally come and teach me something. I salute the world class fuck-ups and I wish you well on your endeavors. Strap on your helmets and try not to run into any walls in your journeys. Act like you know me and quote that in your blog baby, peace.

Alright so everyone who knows me and knows me well, knows that I have a problem with grown people being bored with life, grown people needing their insecurities baby-sat, grown people needing to be validated, grown people having no nitch in life, grown people having no ambition and grown people being down right full of shit. Now for the kids 21 and younger I let slide with this, because they might not know any better; even them I can't deal with in my life and this is why I had to swap em' out. Tell them to call me when they grow up; get some confidence, set some goals and obtain that mental swagger. I know some very intelligent grown people whom are quite knowledgeable, but yet still ignorant. You have all this knowledge, but aren't putting any of it into action, still sitting around not knowing what to do in life and searching for someone to entertain you. This is a sad case. There is too much one can learn and be entertained with just by stepping out their front door. "The world brought me to my knees. What have you brung you? Did you improve on the design? Did you do something new? Well your name ain't on the guest list. Who brung you?" Open your minds people and stop depending on others for every damn thing. Learn how to take out the trash and stop approaching people with that stench and maybe, just maybe they'll stick around longer. Your funk is turning people off and running them away; get your mind right.

So I've had enough amusement for the past couple of months and the curtains are closing on some of these folks. Time to hold auditions for new acts and hopefully I can take some of these out on the road with me. So just like Jeezy, I'm swappin' em' out.

At what point do you realize that a person isn't cut to handle being in your life? What is your turn off point? When do you swap em' out?

Monday morning we meet again. I actually feel good today and I opt this day to be a great one. Very big difference from the morning I had on Friday. I woke up refreshed; with a smile on my face? Ha! Did I get any this weekend? No, I was actually good this weekend. In fact, I don’t know the reason why I was and still am smiling.

I had a good weekend. Work was extremely busy on Saturday, but I was glad since I was ever so anxious to meet up with someone I've been conversing with over the past week. It was going to be my first time meeting the person who has been stealing my thoughts and sending electric waves through my brain. We were suppose to go to the movies, but we both decided against that and planned on just sitting down face to face to get to know one another better. This made me nervous of course, because I'm quite shy when it comes to my first one on one encounter with someone I'm digging. So needless to say my stomach was swarming with butterflies all the way to her house. Why? Because this person intrigues me and she challenges my thinking. I haven't had that feeling in a long time. For the past 3 years, I've been the teacher. I've been the promoter and star of every intelligent conversation. I was leading a one woman band and having this break has been delightful. I can't help to wonder how long it'll last.

You know how you meet someone and you think they're so much different from the rest, only later to find out they are just crazier than the rest, loll. So I'm not going to analyze this one so soon. I'll let things play out and take heed to those pink flags that are on the verge of turning red. A couple things spoken of and heard in a conversation we shared last night turned me off just a tad, but they can be over looked. I do realize that my views, principles and every being is something that cannot be matched. So for me to expect her to be a certain way just because I am would be absurd. I'll stop writing on this one for the moment, because I don’t want to stick my foot in my mouth, loll. So more on this Aquarius VS Aries adventure later.

This weekend was quite lovely and I'm not even mad that it ended faster than anticipated. I hope this day will be a productive and blessed one for all of my family, friends and loved ones. I will try my best to be back later with the weekly quote. Happy Monday.