Showing posts with label Monthly Quote. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Monthly Quote. Show all posts
Damn, the year is basically over. It's December 1st! I enjoyed my 4 day weekend, although I had to work at 'the caster' a couple of those days. It was still great. I'm glad to see that everybody got through the Thanksgiving holiday, with little or no drama. I'm back at work this morning unfortunately, but I'm off until Friday after this; so I'm not even tripping and I'm anxious to knock this day out. It won't be easy, since my desk is stacked high to the ceiling with work. Another day in the life of an over worked and underpaid citizen though. Blah.
So I have a question to ask? Does the loud mouth intrigue you more, or the mild tempered and barely speaking? And when I say barely speaking, I mean the ones that gives the need to know information. I personally have run into a lot of loud mouths this year. People who don't know when to shut up. They feel they need to tell their entire life stories in one setting, just to impress and compare. This in turn leaves me in my quiet state. I'm labeled as shy, bashful, nervous or sometimes stuck up. Negative sir. None of the above, it's just that the person wouldn't shut the fuck up long enough for me to get a word in. I don't over talk people, and I don't cut them off. Now, I might hang up if they get on my nerves too bad, but for the most part; I listen and I observe. I let people talk themselves straight into a lie, and I stick around long enough to see how they will cover it up, and I dip.
So I have a question to ask? Does the loud mouth intrigue you more, or the mild tempered and barely speaking? And when I say barely speaking, I mean the ones that gives the need to know information. I personally have run into a lot of loud mouths this year. People who don't know when to shut up. They feel they need to tell their entire life stories in one setting, just to impress and compare. This in turn leaves me in my quiet state. I'm labeled as shy, bashful, nervous or sometimes stuck up. Negative sir. None of the above, it's just that the person wouldn't shut the fuck up long enough for me to get a word in. I don't over talk people, and I don't cut them off. Now, I might hang up if they get on my nerves too bad, but for the most part; I listen and I observe. I let people talk themselves straight into a lie, and I stick around long enough to see how they will cover it up, and I dip.
"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious." - Albert Einstein
Sometimes it pays to share only what is asked. There is no need to go out of your way, add to the story, or lie to get a rise out of people. I like a challenge of the mind, and I am intrigued by mystery. It makes me want to stick around just to see what else will be revealed. When I first meet you, I beg that you leave me hanging, so that I can come back for more. I will yearn for it, anticipate it. Quench my thirst. Don't drown me with ignorance, irrelevant information and outrageous lies.
Just yesterday, I had to honestly ask someone why she felt the need to disperse such useless information to me. This was after she told me this fabricated, long, and drawn out story about who she was with, how she was basically using me as a pawn to make them jealous, how much money this person had, and who the person was sleeping with while away in Iraq. Needless to say, I didn't give a damn about none of this. She told this story for about 5 minutes. I just sat in silence and listened. There were a few pregnant pauses, and I guess this is where I was suppose to come in with a response or reaction, but there were none. I don't respond or react to bullshit. So she kept going. At the end of this tale, I asked her that question. Keep in mind, this person states that she was trying to get to know me. ME! However, she constantly ran her mouth about all of these faceless people in her life, not even ONCE asking about ME. She was thanked for her time and dismissed.
Just yesterday, I had to honestly ask someone why she felt the need to disperse such useless information to me. This was after she told me this fabricated, long, and drawn out story about who she was with, how she was basically using me as a pawn to make them jealous, how much money this person had, and who the person was sleeping with while away in Iraq. Needless to say, I didn't give a damn about none of this. She told this story for about 5 minutes. I just sat in silence and listened. There were a few pregnant pauses, and I guess this is where I was suppose to come in with a response or reaction, but there were none. I don't respond or react to bullshit. So she kept going. At the end of this tale, I asked her that question. Keep in mind, this person states that she was trying to get to know me. ME! However, she constantly ran her mouth about all of these faceless people in her life, not even ONCE asking about ME. She was thanked for her time and dismissed.
Where was the mystery? All I heard was a loud mouth that really wasn't saying anything. Instead of being intrigued, I was left unimpressed and irritated.
T.Nicole © 2008
I would've thought the time change would give me a little bit more time to rest up for this glorious Monday morning. My sidekick alarm decided to go off an hour earlier than it needed to even though the time was set correctly on it. I have no idea what's up with that. So I was up at 5:15 and couldn't go back to sleep. I drug myself into the office this morning, and I'm trying to get the caffeine pumping through my veins. It doesn't seem to be working though, being the fact that I'm on my second cup. Anyway, it's November, wow. The year is pretty much over. Do I feel accomplished so far? Yes I do. This year did not go to waste at all. I still have a few more goals to accomplish before January 1st and I'm working on them as we speak.
October was a pretty long month. If seemed as if it would never end for me. I didn't have any major issues, but some things occurred that caused me to fall in a hole, but I'm climbing out of it slowly but surely. Being down in this hole, I've realized how far I've come in my positive thinking and faith. Nowadays, I'm just not worried about things anymore. I know that my problems are only temporary and that I'm strong enough to get through them. Some things just cause for a little patience and prayer. I know I'll be over the hurdle in no time.
"Never fear shadows. They simply mean there's light shining somewhere nearby." - Ruth E. Renkel
I now know that there is always a light shining, but it is we who are holding our hands over our own eyes blocking our view of this light. I'm no pin cushion and I'm no cutter. I do not like self inflicted pain, so there is no reason to sulk in my own guilt and punish myself for any reason. This is a great quote to guide me through this month. I look at it in two different ways though. The other way that I look at it is that some folks hide in the shadows for fear of the light. Fear of things being revealed. Those things being the insecurities within them. This is why some people continue to punish themselves and remain in that unhappy state, because they fear facing the light. I can't get with that man. I refuse to be a shadow ducker.
So everything that I am personally going through right now will soon be graced by the force of light, and all of my problems will temporarily dissolve. I use to go through life ducking in shadows; it turn blocking my own blessings, because I feared the light. I quickly realized that that got me no where fast. Now here I am today as happy as can be and glady accepting my blessings one by one.
It's October man! Shout out to my big Sister on her 39th birthday today. Go sis! We're doing it up this weekend. Hold on to that wig and get your old ass ready, you ain't 40 yet!! Yeah man, but wasn't it July just yesterday? Fall is here, the leaves are falling, and it's about to get cold outside. I mean I live in Texas so it won't get THAT cold, but cold enough for us Texans. October is usually a pretty dull month for me. There is five weeks this month, so I'm sure it will seem a little long too. I'll be paid out the ass this month though, so no complaints there. This month will mark my one year anniversary at Comcast on the 22nd. I'm bittersweet about that right there, but the year spent with the company has flown by. I know the products, system and policies like the back of my hand. I've adapted to the environment well. Everyday has been a new challenge dealing with those customers, but hey Comcast has been alright to me. I just know that raise better kick in by the 22nd or there will be another massive cable outage in the mean streets of H-town! Hurricane Ike don't have shit on T. Nookie!
So of course now is the time to drop the quote of the month. This just gives me something to look back on during the weeks to come and have something inspirational and encouraging to live by. I've found this to work for me a lot and it's been working every since I started this monthly quote thing a couple years ago. If I find myself down for any reason, I revert back to the quote written at the beginning of the month and use it as a source of guidance. So this month's quote is from Anatole France.
"If the path be beautiful, let us not ask where it leads." - Anatole France
You know I've noticed that for the past couple of months the quotes have been very simple and straight to the point. When I look at these words I think about how many things in my life that I have brought confusion to and complicated big time with my analytical questions. That's the control freak in me. I have to have a hold and an answer for everything. Sometimes, things are just better left alone. Things have to work themselves out, they have to define themselves, make a name for themselves with out me clouding the picture with my own complicated thoughts. If it feels right and it feels good, why would you question it? For one we are so use to being victimized by our own selves that we probably don't believe something that good and that right is deserving to us. So we question it. We ask why me? What now? What's the catch? The catch is us. The complication and conflict is in the human mind, not in the situation.
So I'm trying to be more free flowing with things. Not careless, but not so uptight about things. Not so analytical. Every situation I go through does not have to be a political debate. Bottom line; it ain't that damn serious. The situation is good, I feel good, I'm happy and THIS is beautiful. Why question it?
So of course now is the time to drop the quote of the month. This just gives me something to look back on during the weeks to come and have something inspirational and encouraging to live by. I've found this to work for me a lot and it's been working every since I started this monthly quote thing a couple years ago. If I find myself down for any reason, I revert back to the quote written at the beginning of the month and use it as a source of guidance. So this month's quote is from Anatole France.
"If the path be beautiful, let us not ask where it leads." - Anatole France
You know I've noticed that for the past couple of months the quotes have been very simple and straight to the point. When I look at these words I think about how many things in my life that I have brought confusion to and complicated big time with my analytical questions. That's the control freak in me. I have to have a hold and an answer for everything. Sometimes, things are just better left alone. Things have to work themselves out, they have to define themselves, make a name for themselves with out me clouding the picture with my own complicated thoughts. If it feels right and it feels good, why would you question it? For one we are so use to being victimized by our own selves that we probably don't believe something that good and that right is deserving to us. So we question it. We ask why me? What now? What's the catch? The catch is us. The complication and conflict is in the human mind, not in the situation.
So I'm trying to be more free flowing with things. Not careless, but not so uptight about things. Not so analytical. Every situation I go through does not have to be a political debate. Bottom line; it ain't that damn serious. The situation is good, I feel good, I'm happy and THIS is beautiful. Why question it?
Well the Labor Day weekend is over and I'm back on my grind. I woke up with a clouded mind and a heavy heart this morning. I'm just waiting for the usual chain of events to pop off from this emotional state I'm in. I was driving to work this morning wondering what I can do to ease my mind and nurture my heart. After praying and crying all night; it's rather hard to bounce back from that. I know one thing, Keyshia Cole and Mary J. Blige will do it every time. Listening to these women will have you feeling like you're on top of the world. They will have you thinking about all of the things you deserve and the proper way you should be treated. I needed the uplift this morning and it made me feel a little better.Over the weekend I had some time to do a little thinking. I realize how alone I truly am in my world. I have a couple people who are very close to me, but they will never be able to get so close that they understand totally who I am. For them to do that, they would have to be me. You ever been so frustrated with someone for not getting the point you're trying to make? You get angry and you may even start to yell, thinking that maybe they just don't hear you. However, when it's all said and done; you're still alone in your own understandings. That person really isn't to be held at fault for not understanding you, because your point is painted in your own perception of life. All humans can really ask for is respect. Understanding is rarely ever found. Now respect is something that we all deserve, especially if we're naturally giving it.
While I was tossing and turning last night, I came to the realization that I've placed myself in another emotional predicament that only I can be held responsible for. I listed all of my pros and cons in loving someone with all of me. Everything is all good, until you're left alone with your thoughts and your feelings scrambled on a dish in front of you. You're the only one dining at this table. The person that you're loving has now gone deeper into their own world and are handling their own feelings the best way that they know how.
"In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer." - Albert Camus
I know that things are only what you make of them. The only issues that evolve in any situation is nursed by you and only you. Only you can make it better or you can make it worse. I find myself guilty in holding someone responsible for my feelings. Just because love is involved really doesn't mean anything. Love is what it is and it is handled differently by every individual on this earth. I love a certain way and that way is hard. When I'm in it, I'm in it! I turn myself inside out and make sure that I give my all. My expectations are at an all time high for that of my mate. That is my mistake. Even in love, you cannot expect anything from anyone.
Being left alone with darkness of my room, the tears splashing on my pillows and the warm embrace of God, who is my best friend; reminded me of how much I honestly do love myself. This is a state that is rare for me and a state that I vowed to never be in again. I've lost myself in someone and I've gone against who I am. I feel that we all can be with someone in love without losing yourself. If you do happen to lose yourself, then you're only setting yourself up for a harder fall in the end. This is a reality check for me and something that I needed to be reminded of real quick, before I lost my damn mind.
Aquarius - September 3, 2008
It may seem as if you are on the edge of a cliff with your legs dangling over the side, dear Aquarius. Your hands are frantically searching for handholds as your feet struggle to support you on the tiny ledge below. You may be swearing to yourself that when you get out of this predicament, you will never come this way again. The fact is that this is all part of the cycle. These challenges are necessary in order to make yourself stronger and more appreciative of the easy stretches in the road.
In love I ask for respect and to be met half way in all that is done. I ask for proper communication, trust and honesty. Things that sound so simple but are so hard to maintain and obtain. I'm not trying to fall over this cliff again. It hurts and it leaves me with too many bruises that I have to heal. "The best way to escape from your problem is to solve it." - Robert Anthony. Simple and sweet. I appreciate the changes that I've made and the woman that I've become. I appreciate all of the heartaches I've gone through in my past and how good it felt once my wounds were healed. I've learned from my mistakes and I'm only hanging over this cliff, because I'm on the verge of making the same mistake twice times three. Can't do it. Won't do it.
I refuse to fall out of love, but I will if love will not have me anymore and cannot respect and accept my changes. I have to stay true to myself and never lose everything that I've built in someone else. That's too much to be thrown on them as a person and it's not fair. It will end up with both of us hurt in the end. Logically speaking, I have to do what I have to do and get back on that easy stretch. End detour.
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Didn't I just write a quote of the month blog last week? It's already August?! What happened to the summer? I guess that's what happens when your days run into each other as mine do. Well, lets see; last month I wrote on the topic of peace and understanding. I tried to incorporate this into my days during the month of July and I believed it helped me out a little bit. I do that feel that it was a peaceful month for me and nothing was obtained by force, but only through understanding. Einstein paved the way last month and I've decided to let my cousin, your cousin, everybody's cousin; Norman Cousins pave the way this month.
"If something comes to life in others because of you, then you have made an approach to immortality." - Norman Cousins
I've seen many surveys posted on this site, MySpace and have even been asked in job interviews a very interesting question; what is one thing you want to accomplish before you leave this earth? Many people say they'd like to raise a family, become wealthy and successful, make sure that they're just a good person when they go on. Well in my opinion, I don't think that my life was all that fulfilling if I do not leave this earth without touching the soul, heart and mind of at least one person I've crossed paths with.
Immortality; meaning never dying or a famous person or thing. How many famous actors, singers, rappers, authors, politicans and so forth do we know that has passed away that is still being mentioned today? They are still living within many people still walking around on earth. That's what I want to do. I don’t want the fame and the luxuries can be kept. I just want to reach people through what I do. I want to be remembered for the words that I've written and for the person who I am. I want to live on within friends, family, co-workers, strangers; whomever I've crossed paths with, physically or mentally.
So what is your purpose in life? Is it to help others? Is it to teach others? Is it to give to others? Do you want to only be remembered for what you had? What you took? Or what you gave? Think about it…
"If something comes to life in others because of you, then you have made an approach to immortality." - Norman Cousins
I've seen many surveys posted on this site, MySpace and have even been asked in job interviews a very interesting question; what is one thing you want to accomplish before you leave this earth? Many people say they'd like to raise a family, become wealthy and successful, make sure that they're just a good person when they go on. Well in my opinion, I don't think that my life was all that fulfilling if I do not leave this earth without touching the soul, heart and mind of at least one person I've crossed paths with.
Immortality; meaning never dying or a famous person or thing. How many famous actors, singers, rappers, authors, politicans and so forth do we know that has passed away that is still being mentioned today? They are still living within many people still walking around on earth. That's what I want to do. I don’t want the fame and the luxuries can be kept. I just want to reach people through what I do. I want to be remembered for the words that I've written and for the person who I am. I want to live on within friends, family, co-workers, strangers; whomever I've crossed paths with, physically or mentally.
So what is your purpose in life? Is it to help others? Is it to teach others? Is it to give to others? Do you want to only be remembered for what you had? What you took? Or what you gave? Think about it…
I can't believe how fast June flew by. Now here we are at the 1st of July. Seriously into this summer thing and it's hot. REAL FREAKIN' HOT. That's Texas for you though. I can't say that I accomplished everything that I hoped to accomplish last month, but those short term goals were not forgotten. This is the month that I will follow through. I got back on track with paying my parents back, buying things for my apartment, keeping my car maintenance up, and keeping my job performance in excellent status. Last month my focus was on solitude. Getting my mind right and taking my time out alone away from the pressures of my every day life. So this months focus goes hand in hand with last months. Mr. Albert Einstein brings us this month's quote.
"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding." - Albert Einstein. I have always tried to keep the peace in all situations that I experience in life. For the longest time I would have these internal battles with myself because I didn't understand why I couldn't get my point across or why no one was really hearing me. Everything was always left over my head and up in the air. Everyone who knows me, knows that I HATE things being left in the air. So therefore the peace isn't kept within. I want to try an accomplish this during the month of July.
Understanding is said to be the key. I understand that life is only what I make it and I'm a peace with that. I understand that people aren't meant to be in my life forever and I'm at peace with that. I understand that everything that spills from my lips won't be agreed with and I'm at peace with that. I understand that every way that I'm stuck in isn't accepted by all and I'm at peace with that. I'm a peace with knowing that I'll forever be misunderstood. I'm at peace with understanding that my expectations of people will never be met. I want to maintain this peace by taking things just as they are. Do not force the unwilling or the impossible. Something else can be done with my time. Worrying why something isn't being done as I'd do it or why this person just said this or isn't saying that is a waste of my precious time. All major things are left in God's hands so why should I sweat the small stuff? Absorb it, understand it and become at peace with it. Facing the fact that the world can't be changed by one person and that the people in it won't change is a very important factor in peace within.
Understanding is said to be the key. I understand that life is only what I make it and I'm a peace with that. I understand that people aren't meant to be in my life forever and I'm at peace with that. I understand that everything that spills from my lips won't be agreed with and I'm at peace with that. I understand that every way that I'm stuck in isn't accepted by all and I'm at peace with that. I'm a peace with knowing that I'll forever be misunderstood. I'm at peace with understanding that my expectations of people will never be met. I want to maintain this peace by taking things just as they are. Do not force the unwilling or the impossible. Something else can be done with my time. Worrying why something isn't being done as I'd do it or why this person just said this or isn't saying that is a waste of my precious time. All major things are left in God's hands so why should I sweat the small stuff? Absorb it, understand it and become at peace with it. Facing the fact that the world can't be changed by one person and that the people in it won't change is a very important factor in peace within.
I've witnessed so many bad situations occur because of misunderstandings. It's true that now days people aren't even trying to understand. Their ignorance is bliss. They speak without listening to what has already been said and what is being said. They hear no one but themselves. Ever been the victim of a one-sided conversation? This happens to me all the time. Either I'm cut off for bullshit or I'm totally dismissed for something that they feel is more important than what I just said. Who really cares about me outside of my family? Who really wants to listen to what I have to say? Why do I grant everyone with the opprotunity to be heard before my words are spoken? Who knows, but hey, I do understand that the majority of the world is self-centered and ignorant and I'm at peace with that. Deuces.
Damn, I can't believe it is June already! We are half way through this year! 6 months away from being 2009, 6 months away from reaching my 5 year anniversary at my company, and 7 months away from being 25 yrs old. Yes, time is definitely flying this year. Even after all the crazy things that has happened thus far, I am still enjoying this year nonetheless. I am still excited about what other blessings are coming my way. This month's quote is about Solitude. This is truly right up my alley, because I am a person that is use to secluding myself from the world to gather my mental and concentrate on my spiritual. James Russell Lowell 's words are chosen for this month.
"Solitude is a needful to the imagination as society is wholesome for the character." - James Russell Lowell
I'm going to have to retaliate to the ladder part of Lowell's words and use the words of John Milton, "Solitude sometimes is the best society." I honestly think that society is at times detrimental to the character, especially in today's age. However, it is that solitude in our personal lives that can lift us above and beyond our everyday problems and the camped box that society tries to place us in. I try to take as much time as I possibly can to just sit and think about my life; past, present and future. Where have I been that has gotten me to the place I am today? Where will the place I am today lead me to in my future? I sometimes sit at Memorial Park at my favorite bench right in the middle of the park and just stare into the skies and think. I watch the people bicycling and running around the park, the kids playing, the families grilling food and it all uplifts my senses. It is there that I begin to appreciate the simple things in life and thank the Creator for all things.
Sometimes I let the things in my everyday life swallow me whole. I get lost in other people's problems as well as my own problems. I get so caught up that I forget to recognize my possible blessings in life. When I take those mental vacations, it is there that I become more clear, wise and mature in my thinking. Such deliberate, intense and uninterrupted thought brought clarity to the perception I held of myself and my life.
It's funny how people pick up on positive vibes. I go on my mental vacations; returning rejuvenated with my maturity level at an all time high and I subconsciously give people around me permission to do the same. They recognize the changes within me. All of my days are not peaceful nonetheless, but the more older I become the less and less I worry about those irrelevant things. I've mastered the task of letting go. Something so simple, but yet so difficult. Thank you Lord for giving me the power and determination to do so. I let Him do his job with no complaints. He's better at it anyway, loll.
Solitude at times has to be forced when the road gets rough, and that is okay. Do not fight it; sit down and think. Let your mind kick into overdrive and become trapped into the realms you've never explored before. It'll be well worth it, trust me.
I may have to take a trip back to the park this month. Maybe a couple of times, to just sit at my favorite bench and let the rejuvenation begin.
Sometimes I let the things in my everyday life swallow me whole. I get lost in other people's problems as well as my own problems. I get so caught up that I forget to recognize my possible blessings in life. When I take those mental vacations, it is there that I become more clear, wise and mature in my thinking. Such deliberate, intense and uninterrupted thought brought clarity to the perception I held of myself and my life.
It's funny how people pick up on positive vibes. I go on my mental vacations; returning rejuvenated with my maturity level at an all time high and I subconsciously give people around me permission to do the same. They recognize the changes within me. All of my days are not peaceful nonetheless, but the more older I become the less and less I worry about those irrelevant things. I've mastered the task of letting go. Something so simple, but yet so difficult. Thank you Lord for giving me the power and determination to do so. I let Him do his job with no complaints. He's better at it anyway, loll.
Solitude at times has to be forced when the road gets rough, and that is okay. Do not fight it; sit down and think. Let your mind kick into overdrive and become trapped into the realms you've never explored before. It'll be well worth it, trust me.
I may have to take a trip back to the park this month. Maybe a couple of times, to just sit at my favorite bench and let the rejuvenation begin.
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