Showing posts with label Weekly Re-Cap. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Weekly Re-Cap. Show all posts
It has been a crazy week for me. The rain is pouring, but best believe I have my umbrella poppin'! I'm dodging every dagger the devil is throwing at me. "But it will take a thousand bullets and the power of JESUS for you to stop mine" - Ludacris. Like the rest of the world, I have problems out of the ass, and the economy is taking it's toll on me big time. I'm good though. This week went by pretty fast, but I guess that's because it's been so busy. That's what I do. I get my hustle on and make sure that my mind is never idle.
I learned this week that I need to slow the hell down on the roads, loll. I praying my license doesn't get suspended, because I need to get to and from work man! I really have to do better. Texas Public Transportation will be after my ass if I don't. I'll slow down on the roads, but I gotta keep moving in life period. This week I truly learned to not STOP! No matter who is grabbing on my coattail or who is throwing boulders in my path. I have literally wasted years allowing people to hold me back. Stumbling me spiritually, weighing me down emotionally and physically. I was indulging in other people's problems and worried about things that was completely irrelevant to me.
I learned that I can't force anyone to do anything. Whether it goes my way or not. At the end of the day people will do what they want to do for THEM. Those same people are going to come and go in and out of my life, but I have to let the reasons for this define themselves. In the meantime I just keep moving. I'm in my own lane and I have my own destination. Not everybody is meant to go where I'm going. Truth spoken, I am heading straight for the top. If you reek of bullshit, insecurity and emotional instability; I gotta drop you off. I don't care who you are. Nobody should let ANYBODY hold them back for any reason. Yeah, so my lesson this week was to definitely keep it moving. Yo, we doin' a buck eighty over here kid! Catch up if you can! This shit ain't dedicated to one person; it's dedicated to everybody I fuckin' know. Don't get it twisted. If you moving slow; I'll love you regardless, but I gotta let you go. On to the next city.
*Disclaimer to all* - "Please do not harass me. Just holla if you got me and fuck ya if you had me!" - Drizzy!
I learned this week that I need to slow the hell down on the roads, loll. I praying my license doesn't get suspended, because I need to get to and from work man! I really have to do better. Texas Public Transportation will be after my ass if I don't. I'll slow down on the roads, but I gotta keep moving in life period. This week I truly learned to not STOP! No matter who is grabbing on my coattail or who is throwing boulders in my path. I have literally wasted years allowing people to hold me back. Stumbling me spiritually, weighing me down emotionally and physically. I was indulging in other people's problems and worried about things that was completely irrelevant to me.
I learned that I can't force anyone to do anything. Whether it goes my way or not. At the end of the day people will do what they want to do for THEM. Those same people are going to come and go in and out of my life, but I have to let the reasons for this define themselves. In the meantime I just keep moving. I'm in my own lane and I have my own destination. Not everybody is meant to go where I'm going. Truth spoken, I am heading straight for the top. If you reek of bullshit, insecurity and emotional instability; I gotta drop you off. I don't care who you are. Nobody should let ANYBODY hold them back for any reason. Yeah, so my lesson this week was to definitely keep it moving. Yo, we doin' a buck eighty over here kid! Catch up if you can! This shit ain't dedicated to one person; it's dedicated to everybody I fuckin' know. Don't get it twisted. If you moving slow; I'll love you regardless, but I gotta let you go. On to the next city.
*Disclaimer to all* - "Please do not harass me. Just holla if you got me and fuck ya if you had me!" - Drizzy!
Ya'll have a good weekend. I know I am!
Happy Friday people. We managed to make it through yet another work week. Blogging 2 days in a row! I'm back on it! Wait. Did I blog yesterday? Don't matter, it seems like it so I'm going to roll with it. I am anticipating this weekend. The birthday is right around the corner. Next Thursday to be exact. Clubbing at The Toy Box tonight, shopping tomorrow, fried chicken shindig tomorrow night and hitting up the Sweet Saturdays after that. There are some pictures floating around MySpace with me under extreme influence outside the club. Doing things totally out of my reserved and swaggeristic demeanor. I had no idea people were equipped with cameras. Some friends I have. I was thinking about posting those pics here, but I'm not even going to do that to myself. So instead, here are some photos of some folks that attended Sweet Saturdays last week.
Can't wait until this long as work day is over. I'm slowly getting over my income tax news and beef with the IRS. I'm getting over the fact that at the moment I can't afford a pot to piss in. I'm getting over the fact that I'm hungry as hell and lunch doesn't begin for another 40 minutes. I'm getting over the fact that I have to work on Valentine's Day. I'm getting over the fact that I'm single again and back on the prowl; I thought it was perfect and I don’t know how. I'm getting over the fact that the blackberry curve 8900 might not be mine until late March. I'm getting over the fact that won't shit change until I start the damn movement. I'm getting over the fact that not everyone knows I'm gay, but they will find out sooner or later. I'm getting over the fact that they might not all respect it, but at the end of the day they can all kiss my gay ass. I'm getting over the fact that I need a perm, but I'm not going to the beauty shop until the 14th. With that last thing being said, I don't even want to go on.
Aquarius - February 6, 2009
Emotional breakthroughs don't come along every day, so when you start to feel like you're coming to a realization today, you need to stop whatever you are doing and devote some serious time to contemplating what it all means. If you just can't afford an hour to sit by yourself plumbing the depths of your heart, then at least try to make some time later in the week. Your mind is in the right place to look at tender issues with a new eye in order to see the cold, hard truth.
True enough the cold hard truth is knocking on the outside of my heart. Today I'll open up, have a seat, shoot the breeze and kick it with the cold hard truth.
It's like 1:15 in the morning, and I still have not been to sleep from yesterday's family festivities. I had an excellent day. I kept thinking that it was Sunday, which is our normal day to come out to our parents house. Me and my sister came around noon yesterday. Although my mom doesn't do the holiday thing, she did throw down on an excellent meal. I can't seem to get enough of my Queen Bea's cornbread dressing, and broccoli rice casserole. Oh, and 'my mama biscuits' off the chain too! Besides the bomb food, we had a great day together.
Aside from Thanksgiving day, I have been reminded various times throughout the year that I have a lot to be thankful for. I know that being a human, I put a lot of stress on myself; in turn causing me to take many things for granted. When I sit around crying the lonely cry, the truth of the matter is; I'm never lonely. My friends and family are beautiful, and are here for me 365. With these fine people behind me, I'll never need for anything. Having these people here for me at the lowest points in my life, lifted me right back up to those high points. I'm going to cut this short, because even I can't find the words to express my appreciation for them.
Although this week was short, it was busy as hell. This made me anticipate yesterday even more. I made sure I was on my grind like ever before, just to get to that light at the end of the tunnel. Just like the rest of the world, I was slapped in the face with the fact that I am severely over worked and ridiculously under paid. With all the people dropping out like flies, it'd be great if they can distribute that extra cash into we barrel scrappers bank accounts. That'll never happen though. It's all good though, because my employment is just another thing that I am thankful for, no matter how raw their doing me. Speaking of f'd up situations, I have to work tonight. I am off all day from one job, but have to go to work at 5. I'm not looking forward to that, but I know it'll be laid back. It better be.
I hope everyone had a great Turkey Day and are resting peacefully in LaLa land right now. That's where I'm about to go now. My eyes suddenly feel like a ton of bricks were just placed on them. Ya'll have a great weekend.
Nookie.
It is FRIDAY!!! And it's cold in Texas; I'm not feeling it. This week went by super fast for me. I don¢t celebrate the holidays or anything like that, but I do look forward to the time off next week. Growing up as a Jehovah's Witness with my mom, I never celebrated, but I've always had my own personal way of living. I have disappointed my mom on many occasion, because I'm not actually practicing the religion. I have belief in it, but the kind of person I am and my life style, just won't sit well with the J-Dubs! Ridiculed and out casted, loll. They hate me, whatever. So Thanksgiving is next week, and I have never had a REAL Thanksgiving in all of my 24 years, but I always manage to get some sympathy from whatever female(s) I'm talking to this time of year, and get my hand on some food! Can't wait for that. Really on my time off, I plan on spending some time with my family and doing some much needed work on my novel. Anyway, all that is next week. Let me re-cap this week.
Of course, everyday that goes by in our lives we learn something new. Either about ourselves, our friends, or our family. Life just brings on new beginnings everyday. I mean if your life doesn't do that for you; you're a boring cuntbag, period. I mean a person who is truly living, never stops learning, ya dig? "So while you were hanging out, down the street, doing the same ol' thing that you did last week. I was off inside the lab knittin' my speech. All you haters do is sleep, ya'll can rest in peace." That's right, I'm a Cool Kid, and this is why I do these weekly re-caps, just to go over all that I've learned during the course of my hectic work weeks. My life is nothing less than interesting, as a lot of people's whose blogs I tap into as well. All you folks are interesting to say the least.
This week I have realized that I have some ride or die folks in my life man. I mean, I can put a person through hell and back. I'm a beast with it, seriously. However, there was one person who I never thought would last this long in the world of Mica. She is holding on strong, I mean like the last woman standing. DeeJay is doing her thing man. She is making me focus on her and only her, even when I don¢t want to. Sometimes, I feel bad, because I am like super jerkish to this girl, and she brushes it off like it's nothing and she keeps talking to my horrible ass. This week, I have learned to let my guard down with her. She has been doing all of this hollering for almost 2 years, and I've finally slowed down to actually make out what she's saying. I just always thought shortie had a problem saying bye bye, which 2Pac said is just another hazard of being a fly guy. Well, I'm kinda glad she hasn't said bye bye; I sorta dig her. You didn't hear that from me though. So shout out to DeeJay. Go DeeJay!! That's my DeeJay! ;]
I also found out that my bestie is being laid off come March '09. I have really admired how strong she is being, and positive about the whole thing. She has come along way as we've grown up into our adulthood. I was so proud of her when she got this job and stuck with it for over a year. She rode it until the wheels fell off. She always has a plan, and I'm not worried about the fact that she won't be employed, because she is already on her grind in finding another job. She graduates from college next month, and she is about to hit the ground running. That's my ride or die friend, and anybody who sleeps on her, including the company that is letting her go, are damn fools. She is the queen of million dollar plans and ideas, and when that window or door of opportunity opens; she'll be laughing at all those clowns on her way to the bank.
It's common sense that if we want to hold on to something, we must take care of it. Take responsibility and do what we need to do to hold things together. So, if I'm going to ride something until the wheels fall off, I must make sure that I do all I can do to hold that sucker tight so that those wheels won't even think about falling off for years and years and years to come. I can't say I have been doing that with my job. It has becoming harder and harder to keep my head in this whole customer service part-time gig. I have been slacking big time. We had a team meeting yesterday, and they are really cracking the whip on people not "thinking customer first". Ugh! It's hard being a person like me, who genuinely doesn't give a fuck, trying to play the role as a representative that genuinely cares. So in order to ride this job until the wheels fall off, I need to get my act right. I am under new supervision now, and I think things will get better, because she seems to be a pretty good one. We shall see.
So now I have the weekend to regroup myself and get ready for another week come Monday. I do hope that everyone has a great weekend. Whatever you have your heart in, working hard on, shooting your prayers up in the name of; ride that sucker until the wheels fall off!
Mica. Nookie; the alias
Of course, everyday that goes by in our lives we learn something new. Either about ourselves, our friends, or our family. Life just brings on new beginnings everyday. I mean if your life doesn't do that for you; you're a boring cuntbag, period. I mean a person who is truly living, never stops learning, ya dig? "So while you were hanging out, down the street, doing the same ol' thing that you did last week. I was off inside the lab knittin' my speech. All you haters do is sleep, ya'll can rest in peace." That's right, I'm a Cool Kid, and this is why I do these weekly re-caps, just to go over all that I've learned during the course of my hectic work weeks. My life is nothing less than interesting, as a lot of people's whose blogs I tap into as well. All you folks are interesting to say the least.
This week I have realized that I have some ride or die folks in my life man. I mean, I can put a person through hell and back. I'm a beast with it, seriously. However, there was one person who I never thought would last this long in the world of Mica. She is holding on strong, I mean like the last woman standing. DeeJay is doing her thing man. She is making me focus on her and only her, even when I don¢t want to. Sometimes, I feel bad, because I am like super jerkish to this girl, and she brushes it off like it's nothing and she keeps talking to my horrible ass. This week, I have learned to let my guard down with her. She has been doing all of this hollering for almost 2 years, and I've finally slowed down to actually make out what she's saying. I just always thought shortie had a problem saying bye bye, which 2Pac said is just another hazard of being a fly guy. Well, I'm kinda glad she hasn't said bye bye; I sorta dig her. You didn't hear that from me though. So shout out to DeeJay. Go DeeJay!! That's my DeeJay! ;]
I also found out that my bestie is being laid off come March '09. I have really admired how strong she is being, and positive about the whole thing. She has come along way as we've grown up into our adulthood. I was so proud of her when she got this job and stuck with it for over a year. She rode it until the wheels fell off. She always has a plan, and I'm not worried about the fact that she won't be employed, because she is already on her grind in finding another job. She graduates from college next month, and she is about to hit the ground running. That's my ride or die friend, and anybody who sleeps on her, including the company that is letting her go, are damn fools. She is the queen of million dollar plans and ideas, and when that window or door of opportunity opens; she'll be laughing at all those clowns on her way to the bank.
It's common sense that if we want to hold on to something, we must take care of it. Take responsibility and do what we need to do to hold things together. So, if I'm going to ride something until the wheels fall off, I must make sure that I do all I can do to hold that sucker tight so that those wheels won't even think about falling off for years and years and years to come. I can't say I have been doing that with my job. It has becoming harder and harder to keep my head in this whole customer service part-time gig. I have been slacking big time. We had a team meeting yesterday, and they are really cracking the whip on people not "thinking customer first". Ugh! It's hard being a person like me, who genuinely doesn't give a fuck, trying to play the role as a representative that genuinely cares. So in order to ride this job until the wheels fall off, I need to get my act right. I am under new supervision now, and I think things will get better, because she seems to be a pretty good one. We shall see.
So now I have the weekend to regroup myself and get ready for another week come Monday. I do hope that everyone has a great weekend. Whatever you have your heart in, working hard on, shooting your prayers up in the name of; ride that sucker until the wheels fall off!
Mica. Nookie; the alias
Friday, here we are again. This week was pretty blah for me. I really think I need another hobby in life. I have this deep yearning to be wowed as of lately. Everyday goes in and out as a blur, and that's not good. So I've been brainstorming on some activities to get myself into without getting back into my old ways of mischief and promiscuity. I do have my first meeting with The Black Experience group here in Houston tomorrow. My bestie, myself and a few other friends started this group in hopes of gathering a few intellects around H-town to shoot the breeze about our history, present and past in the black community. We're meeting at The Shrine of the Black Madonna tomorrow off of MLK around 1:00pm. I am really looking forward to meeting and mingling with new intellects. I think this will open up a door to what I feel I need at this moment. The first meeting will just be breaking the ice, and playing a few games to get to know one another. It will be fun, so after my hair appointment I'll be heading over there.
I've learned this month to start listening to my heart more. My mind seems to be full of excuses that my heart is having a hard time battling. The wool seems to be over my mind's eye, and I need to remove it quickly before something drastic happens in my life. I'll be up shit's creek without a paddle then. I'm not in the mood for all that, loll. I think I'll take this weekend ahead to do some meditating and regrouping. I need to map out a plan on the things that my heart has been telling me to do for the past few years. Completing my novel, eating healthier, working out, furnishing my home, decorating, saving more money, going back to church, reading the bible, and just becoming a better me; the me that I know I can be. It's time for an annual Mica upgrade. So, I need to see if I can get to some type of compromise with my mind. Hell, my mind has a mind of it's own, so my work is cut out for me, loll.
I hope to find my sister this weekend at some point, so that we may make our regular visit to the parent's house this weekend. I miss my Queen Bea ya'll. It sucks majorly not having her at work, and being able to see her everyday. She is so happy about her new job, and is loving every minute of her now stress free life. I can't wait to see her in person so that she can share more stories with me on her new journey in life. So Sunday, that's where I'll be all day after I leave the nail shop. So nothing, big this weekend, other than The Black Experience meeting tomorrow. Plain and simple living, just how I like it. Ya'll have a good one.
Mica. Nookie, the alias.
Shrine of the Black Madonna
5309 Martin Luther King Blvd.
Houston, TX 77021
I've learned this month to start listening to my heart more. My mind seems to be full of excuses that my heart is having a hard time battling. The wool seems to be over my mind's eye, and I need to remove it quickly before something drastic happens in my life. I'll be up shit's creek without a paddle then. I'm not in the mood for all that, loll. I think I'll take this weekend ahead to do some meditating and regrouping. I need to map out a plan on the things that my heart has been telling me to do for the past few years. Completing my novel, eating healthier, working out, furnishing my home, decorating, saving more money, going back to church, reading the bible, and just becoming a better me; the me that I know I can be. It's time for an annual Mica upgrade. So, I need to see if I can get to some type of compromise with my mind. Hell, my mind has a mind of it's own, so my work is cut out for me, loll.
I hope to find my sister this weekend at some point, so that we may make our regular visit to the parent's house this weekend. I miss my Queen Bea ya'll. It sucks majorly not having her at work, and being able to see her everyday. She is so happy about her new job, and is loving every minute of her now stress free life. I can't wait to see her in person so that she can share more stories with me on her new journey in life. So Sunday, that's where I'll be all day after I leave the nail shop. So nothing, big this weekend, other than The Black Experience meeting tomorrow. Plain and simple living, just how I like it. Ya'll have a good one.
Mica. Nookie, the alias.
So so glad it's Friday. Not too happy about Comcast scheduling me to work both Saturday and Sunday. So much for my weekend. My check will be phat though. After this hurricane and massive power outage in the city, the call volume at Comcast has been tremendously large. This is to be expected though right? Yeah, so needless to say work has been rather crazy all week and is only getting worse as more and more Houstonian's electricity is being restored throughout the city. As soon as the power comes on, their phone cable and internet services go into an outage status. This is something that they do not understand and all they are trying to hear is when it will come back on and if they have to pay the full month's bill or not. Ugh! Some people are so inconsiderate though, I mean all of us in Houston suffered from the power outage and they call up there expecting things to be done right then and there. Due to the damage from the hurricane, it's rather hard to press that magic button and all services are restored like we normally do. Assclowns. I hate people, I really do.
Life is pretty much back to normal for me though. In all areas. I came out of both crazy situations last week without a stain on me! I have to thank God for that. He kept and is still keeping me focused on the things that truly matter. Although both jobs are hectic right now, I'm enjoying getting up every morning to face each day. I am ready and fully equipped for the challenges that may arise during my days.
Life is pretty much back to normal for me though. In all areas. I came out of both crazy situations last week without a stain on me! I have to thank God for that. He kept and is still keeping me focused on the things that truly matter. Although both jobs are hectic right now, I'm enjoying getting up every morning to face each day. I am ready and fully equipped for the challenges that may arise during my days.
Aquarius - September 26, 2008
In an attempt to merge with infinity, you might be overlooking some basic principles of life, dear Aquarius. Be careful of getting seduced by those who want you to get tied up in their drama. At first you might willingly acquiesce. You might not even realize how deep a hole you have dug for yourself before it is too late. Make sure you haven't alienated everyone around you so that there is still someone left to dig you out.
A couple of friends asked me have I given up on love, dating and relationships. The answer is heck no. I don't have women lined up (well not any that I want anyway) to sweep me off of my feet, but I do believe that one woman's ignorant ass loss is another woman's brilliant ass gain. Just thinking about getting to know someone and vice versa makes me want to upchuck. I don't care to know your background, your likes and dislikes. I'm so over this whole thing; I don't even want to have sex. That says a lot. Later for that though. Right now, I'm just not interested. AT ALL. I wish someone would send out a temporary memo though. I don't like having to ignore people or avoid them so that I won't have to hurt anyone's feelings. Oh well though. If you're not interested, you're not interested. Beat it. Scram. Scat. Catch me next season.
I know this weekend is going to be a big blur and will all run together, being that most of my time will be spent at work. I do plan on catching a couple of movies in the theaters so expect some of T. Nicole's movie reviews to be posted on Monday. I plan on FINALLY going to the beauty shop. That damn Ike messed up my routine. Although my beautician knew she could've worked through that hurricane. Punk ass. If I can find a fully stocked and operating grocery store in Houston, I plan on going grocery shopping as well this weekend. That might have to wait until next week some time though.
Well it's lunch time and I'm craving Chinese food.
Well Friday is finally here! That means a nice 3 day weekend! I was so looking forward to this. I still have my vacation time to look forward to as well. Can't wait. It's Ms. Kisses birthday weekend. She doesn't want to do anything. She sucks, I swear, loll. I don't blame her though. We both aren't big on surprise parties and too much attention. So we will probably go out to a nice little club with a good atmosphere. It's so hard to find a nice gay club out here in Houston. Either they are non existent or they are filled with kids that are only gay, because their friend is gay. It sucks. I just want to go to a nice gay hang out, where it isn't too much shoot em' up kill em' music, children, or even 70 yr old lesbians. Now that I think about it; are their any normal gays in Houston that aren't in hiding? Hm, I'll have to do some research on that one.
Aquarius - August 29, 2008
The house might seem rather empty today, dear Aquarius, as most of the other members of your household are probably out and about. This is, however, a good time for you to take care of some projects of your own that you've been putting off. They might be tedious and rather boring, but think of how good you'll feel when they're finally done! In the evening, you might entertain some visitors. Enjoy your day.
Well this weekend I plan to do some cleaning. Go to the store and buy a crap load of cleaning supplies and clean my ass off. It's time that I do so. I can't stand doing it, so I put it off. My apartment isn't filthy or anything, being that I can't sleep in filth or if anything is out of place; I just know I need to give some special attention to some things. I am SO not looking forward to it. I know someone who cleans everyday as if Obama and his family are coming over for dinner. Ugh! I don't see how she does it. Maybe she has an OCD. *Smiles*
This week was pretty long for me. Work is really kicking my ass, but it's the end of the month so all is to be expected. We lose a day of work, because of the holiday. So I'm bitter sweet about having Monday off. I'm busting my ass today to get a lot of stuff done, because all of my deadlines have to be met by the 3rd. Sucks major ass. I really need to hit the lotto, trick some ho's, rob a bank or something; this just isn't cutting it. Got paid today and then turned around and dished all my money out towards rent and bills. We work for the man and then in turn give back to the man. *Slits writs* Ugh! I don't even want to think about it.
I learned a lot about communication this week . I realize that alot of the time when anger overpowers our other emotions, we lose our sense of hearing. We no longer hear the cries of the ones who are trying to communicate with us. In fact, we don't even want to hear them. It is at that very moment, you drown yourself in your own pool of emotions. You see or hear nothing else but what you feel. Your point becomes the only point that should be getting across. It is no longer who is at fault, because both parties aren't listening. You sit and you become angrier because you THINK the right things aren't being said. Oh but they are. No one is listening though. There has been a wall built up in between the two of you and each punch that is taken is only felt by you. You're becoming more numb by the second, until you can't feel anything. Then you sit in silence. No more words are said and no more punches are thrown. The only thing you hear is your own heartbeat slowing down to it's normal pace. The anger is dissolving and that wall is crumbling. This is when your senses come back. You begin to speak as the other person listens and you can see all of the damage that both of you have done. This is where the choices have to be made. And whatever you choose, it's okay, because there is not understanding. Communication is all that was needed. It's all that is ever needed. But when one stops listening the other will soon follow suit. Blah, blah, blah. It usually all happens again and again and again anyway. The fact of the matter is; people change when it's convenient. It's hardly ever permanent.
Well, lunch time is over! I hope everyone has a dope weekend, stays safe and has fun! Lots of fun! Oh and man fuck these hurricanes man. Dodge it if you can.
This is nice. It really is. I never thought I'd see it happen in my lifetime. However, it scares me shitless. My mind state on this whole thing is so much more different than that of the average American.
Tgif ya'll! It's been a rather rainy day, but it has gone well all the same. I would say that this week has been a life altering one. I think that every week should be, honestly speaking. If we don't learn something each day and have some type of personal growth, what have we done with our time? When people ask me "Mica, how have you been?" Or "Mica, what have you been up to?" I don't even have enough time to reply. Truth of the matter is that I've been up to so much. I am living life accordingly with the changes made in my personal growth. As routine as I am, my life is forever changing.
I have accepted another lesson in love and in life this week. Acceptance is my life's task and I am willing to accept just that. I came to realize that I am my own soul mate and that the romantic relationships that I get involved in are merely compliments to what I have built within already.
To the ones that passed through my life this week; thank you. I appreciate the lessons you've taught me. You will not be forgotten, because your teachings will be carried forth through me. Thank you.
So, on to the weekend baby!! My family reunion is tomorrow and I am sort of looking forward to it. I am not going to lie, I just want some good food ya'll. Man oh man! I have taken a vacation day off on Monday and I plan to visit with a couple friends, do some shopping and cleaning. Its off to the movies with my friends to see Mirrors; starring Robin Thicke's fine ass wife. So expect a movie review, ya'll know how I do.
I wish everyone a well weekend ahead and to be safe. Oh and drive slow homie; folks getting pulled over! I can testify!
I have accepted another lesson in love and in life this week. Acceptance is my life's task and I am willing to accept just that. I came to realize that I am my own soul mate and that the romantic relationships that I get involved in are merely compliments to what I have built within already.
To the ones that passed through my life this week; thank you. I appreciate the lessons you've taught me. You will not be forgotten, because your teachings will be carried forth through me. Thank you.
So, on to the weekend baby!! My family reunion is tomorrow and I am sort of looking forward to it. I am not going to lie, I just want some good food ya'll. Man oh man! I have taken a vacation day off on Monday and I plan to visit with a couple friends, do some shopping and cleaning. Its off to the movies with my friends to see Mirrors; starring Robin Thicke's fine ass wife. So expect a movie review, ya'll know how I do.
I wish everyone a well weekend ahead and to be safe. Oh and drive slow homie; folks getting pulled over! I can testify!
I feel like I've been blogging all damn day. However, I couldn't let the day go by without doing my weekly re-cap. This week has finally come to an end and the BED is calling my name in more ways than one; if you get my drift. Smh, I won't go there though. Don’t wanna offend anybody, ya'll know how concerned I am with doing that.
This week I've learned how unimpressed I am with a lot of people in my life and most of the entertainment supplied by society is blah, blah, blah. The word of the week was monkeys and I have seen a lot of them this week. I'm not impressed, but boy did I have a knee slapping time watching them do their tricks. I now view life as a big table and a lot of people are bringing the same thing to it. There is no such thing as originality or uniqueness anymore. Ah! Switch this shit up, please!
After going through this week, I've decided to catch my feelings and bring them to a hault for a particular woman, because let's just say I need a little bit more proof of purchase. Trusting someone is a hard thing for me to do and I just don’t want any déjà vu occurrences here. So the feeling of infatuation is great and all however, some more cards need to be flipped over on this table.
Anywho, I hope everyone has an awesome weekend. And for those of you who are sexually backed up like I am, please go get some. I don't feel like dealing with no ones attitudes come Monday morning! Peace.
This week I've learned how unimpressed I am with a lot of people in my life and most of the entertainment supplied by society is blah, blah, blah. The word of the week was monkeys and I have seen a lot of them this week. I'm not impressed, but boy did I have a knee slapping time watching them do their tricks. I now view life as a big table and a lot of people are bringing the same thing to it. There is no such thing as originality or uniqueness anymore. Ah! Switch this shit up, please!
After going through this week, I've decided to catch my feelings and bring them to a hault for a particular woman, because let's just say I need a little bit more proof of purchase. Trusting someone is a hard thing for me to do and I just don’t want any déjà vu occurrences here. So the feeling of infatuation is great and all however, some more cards need to be flipped over on this table.
Anywho, I hope everyone has an awesome weekend. And for those of you who are sexually backed up like I am, please go get some. I don't feel like dealing with no ones attitudes come Monday morning! Peace.
Friday, Friday, Friday!! It's sort of been a long week for me. I felt like Friday would never arrive, but here we meet again and I'm grateful. No traumatic incidents happened this week, as far as work is concerned. I did learn a lot this week though. I never blogged on the quote of the week, but I'm going to share it now. Mentally, it has guided me through the week.
"If you think about disaster, you will get it. Brood about death and you hasten your demise. Think positively and masterfully, with confidence and faith, and life becomes more secure, more fraught with action, richer in achievement and experience."
- Edward Rickenbacker
Think positive thoughts and positive outcomes will follow; point blank. Think negative thoughts and disaster will follow; plain and simple. Walking in my shoes isn't always the easiest task and I know most people can say that about themselves, but it all plays out in how we handle every situation and how we take things. I've mastered the task of flipping the script and finding that speck of light in all f'd up situations.
This week I've been called out of my name, critically judged by people who do not know me, ignorantly summed up by people who are getting to know me, ignored, blown off, inconsiderately forced into one-sided conversations, slapped in the face with the double standard stick and thrown into a steaming vat of assumptions; making an ass of me and those assuming people. I could have grown bitter over all of these things just listed, but why would I do that? Why would I give people and situations the power to control me? That only makes matters worse. The script was flipped, everything was taken in stride and I rolled with all left hooks swung at me. I'm still on top and I'm still a mystery to those attempting to sum me up. You can't predict the unpredictable. And I can't control the inevitable; in which I have truly learned this week.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
An odd juxtaposition between knowing what you want and doing what others expect can tilt your day into the twilight zone. You might not fully understand what's going on if you try to intellectualize every interaction, yet letting go of your need to know what's right should loosen things up significantly. Forget about logical analysis; just follow your instincts and they will lead you in the right direction.
Hm, good pointers. I think I'll actually take heed to these words. I do tend to over analyze every situation and intellectualize every interaction. This hasn't always been positive for me. In fact, it usually leaves me the only one caring about the situation at hand. Loll, I'm sick of caring to be honest. I'm sick of being held accountable for the mistakes that others have made in the past. I'm not those people. I genuinely care, but for those who want to keep making me out to be the bad guy; I'll be that and stop caring. Insecurity is a muthafucka man. It effects everyone around you and everyone you interact with. So let me flip that script and stop trying to prove myself to these people and working so hard to hop over the Great Wall of China built up around whom folks truly are. It's obviously not the time for the gates to open. I'm not Tom Cruise and this isn't Mission Impossible. Sum that up.
Okay, so I might've gone left field with that last paragraph, but I caught a word! Forgive me. So for this day I pray that I listen to my instincts and let them guide me in the right direction. Along with the help of wisdom, faith, strength, understanding and peace. With that said, I wish all a wonderful weekend ahead. It'll be a weekend of cleaning, relaxing and shopping for me. Can't wait; peace ya'll.
"If you think about disaster, you will get it. Brood about death and you hasten your demise. Think positively and masterfully, with confidence and faith, and life becomes more secure, more fraught with action, richer in achievement and experience."
- Edward Rickenbacker
Think positive thoughts and positive outcomes will follow; point blank. Think negative thoughts and disaster will follow; plain and simple. Walking in my shoes isn't always the easiest task and I know most people can say that about themselves, but it all plays out in how we handle every situation and how we take things. I've mastered the task of flipping the script and finding that speck of light in all f'd up situations.
This week I've been called out of my name, critically judged by people who do not know me, ignorantly summed up by people who are getting to know me, ignored, blown off, inconsiderately forced into one-sided conversations, slapped in the face with the double standard stick and thrown into a steaming vat of assumptions; making an ass of me and those assuming people. I could have grown bitter over all of these things just listed, but why would I do that? Why would I give people and situations the power to control me? That only makes matters worse. The script was flipped, everything was taken in stride and I rolled with all left hooks swung at me. I'm still on top and I'm still a mystery to those attempting to sum me up. You can't predict the unpredictable. And I can't control the inevitable; in which I have truly learned this week.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
An odd juxtaposition between knowing what you want and doing what others expect can tilt your day into the twilight zone. You might not fully understand what's going on if you try to intellectualize every interaction, yet letting go of your need to know what's right should loosen things up significantly. Forget about logical analysis; just follow your instincts and they will lead you in the right direction.
Hm, good pointers. I think I'll actually take heed to these words. I do tend to over analyze every situation and intellectualize every interaction. This hasn't always been positive for me. In fact, it usually leaves me the only one caring about the situation at hand. Loll, I'm sick of caring to be honest. I'm sick of being held accountable for the mistakes that others have made in the past. I'm not those people. I genuinely care, but for those who want to keep making me out to be the bad guy; I'll be that and stop caring. Insecurity is a muthafucka man. It effects everyone around you and everyone you interact with. So let me flip that script and stop trying to prove myself to these people and working so hard to hop over the Great Wall of China built up around whom folks truly are. It's obviously not the time for the gates to open. I'm not Tom Cruise and this isn't Mission Impossible. Sum that up.
Okay, so I might've gone left field with that last paragraph, but I caught a word! Forgive me. So for this day I pray that I listen to my instincts and let them guide me in the right direction. Along with the help of wisdom, faith, strength, understanding and peace. With that said, I wish all a wonderful weekend ahead. It'll be a weekend of cleaning, relaxing and shopping for me. Can't wait; peace ya'll.
"Forgive me for my aggressiveness, but you're going to feel me today!"
Yes, yes ya'll it's Friday again! It's not a pay day weekend and I won't begin to express how much that sucks. I'm just happy the week is over. I have an eventful weekend planned ahead and I hope to enjoy myself to the fullest. Even if my pockets aren't on swoll, loll. I started out this week with all smiles and I'm still smiling. So many blessings behind that, because we all know how dark clouds can form out of nowhere it seems like. Our mood changes with our luck, but thank God none of that happened this week.
I think I ran out of fingers counting how many times I've been called "odd" this week. I've also been told that I tend to force my beliefs on other people and that I leave little or no room to be persuaded into thinking differently. What can I say? I'm set in my ways. Usually when I say something; I stick with it. I do NOT back down when it comes to my beliefs, theories, and perceptions. When it comes to a good debate, I usually knock 'em dead. Like you're going to feel me today son!
Friday, June 27, 2008
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
You have the intensity of fire in your eyes now and the strength of your conviction can actually be scary to someone close to you. Although you don't necessarily feel angry, it's apparent that you will fight for what you want. If others seem confused by your intentions, assure them that you mean no harm and that you are just very passionate about what you know. Then, take a deep breath and tell your story.
I've told my story a million times, but every time someone new comes into my life I have to re-tell it of course. I have no problems in doing so either. Harming someone who I will possibly care about in the near future is not my cup of tea. I like to lay everything out on the table from jump. This causes for no surprises later. You know what I'm about, you know what I've been through, and you know where I'm planning to go with mine. My opinions are strong now days, because they were so hidden in my younger years. My mouth was always glued shut for fear of no one hearing me, or even worse; no one wanting to hear me. Once I got tired of that; I spoke up. Like ya'll gonna hear me today son!
So forgive me for my aggressiveness, because I am very passionate about my beliefs. The way I express myself is my showcase to the world. I express myself grammatically, understandably, and without ambiguity; which makes me a pearl of great price. Tell me your desires, fantasies, wants and needs; I shall deliver the best way I can. Coming to you hard and raw baby; like I know you feel me today son! Take that.
Could this be a cynical Friday for me? For innocent people's sake; I hope not. TGIF though; happy the week is over. I went to bed last night kind of bothered on some ill shit. Me being the person that I am; I wasn't able to close my eyes in peace until I voiced my opinions, angers and polite "fuck you(s)". Yeah boi, last night Mica Mica was tight and for various valid reasons. Shall I list them? Great.
- Someone I thought was a very good friend of mine was suppose to take her first trip to Texas a couple months back. Of course the day she was due to fly out, some outrageous event takes place and she does not make it. Figures. Now, I honestly think the outrageous event was fabricated and she was hiding something. I voiced that opinion too. Of course she got mad and insulted that I thought she was lying. But trust me, if you heard the story; you'd think it was a lie as well. I kid you not. Things were never really the same since then, but I was led to believe that we got past it. But last night I go and read a blog she wrote entitled "My first trip to Texas". What?! So you couldn't call a bitch and let me know you were in town? You were in the club too? My spot; doing the cupid shuffle? Were you really still mad all this time? I mean you could've just told me that instead of making it seem as if we were cool. I respect people get mad and I respect some people don't get over it either. Early dismissal; you can go home.
- Yo on some real shit, I'm not ready for a relationship. The thought of it makes my skin crawl. So giving me ultimatums will only cause me to hit the pavement and move on to the next. I don’t want any agreements, I don't want to make any promises. This is what it is (whatever that may be)...period. If you're looking for security behind a title, look elsewhere. I can tell you I'll be here for you in every way that I can; for as long as I can and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I see that already. Do I love you? Hm, I like you like a WHOLE lot. Do I think about you? Yeah, I do. Am I fucking somebody else? Stop asking me questions you don't want to know the answer to. You know how I do things, because it was laid out on the table from jump. I'm not going to miss your feelings with sugarcoated answers. So don't ask. Kill that relationship talk for the time being; you're making me feel like R. Kelly applying his back mole removal cream. Nervous than a muthafucka! This shit might work and it might not! I'm not ready to find out.
- Anyone have Windows Vista? Does it still have some glitches in the software? I JUST bought a new laptop and it keeps shutting down on me. $900 later; I don’t need that to be happening, AT ALL. I'm taking it back to the store today and if it is indeed this Vista crap, they can put Windows '98 on my shit, because I know that has been perfected as old as it is! I need my laptop for various reasons and I'd like my shit fixed now, please.
Besides the things I was T'd about last night; this was a good week. It went by really fast and I am glad of that. I learned that people will always have something to say about you no matter what you're doing in life. Stating that I'm so fresh you'll want to compete for it is an understatement. Bitches are doing THE MOST! There will always be somebody trying to drag your name in the dirt. I could literally be walking side by side; hand in hand with Jesus Christ Himself and still have somebody throwing rocks at both of us. Miss me with that! Untouchable, please believe me. "I can't feel your shots, because I'm way above your aim." Dig that.
I'm going to reverse this day into a more positive, focused and glorious one. I'm still smiling as always, because nothing can take that away. The scope suggested that I use my heart today and not my cool logic. Hm, logically speaking, I don't see that happening. Happy Friday people; have a great weekend.
- Someone I thought was a very good friend of mine was suppose to take her first trip to Texas a couple months back. Of course the day she was due to fly out, some outrageous event takes place and she does not make it. Figures. Now, I honestly think the outrageous event was fabricated and she was hiding something. I voiced that opinion too. Of course she got mad and insulted that I thought she was lying. But trust me, if you heard the story; you'd think it was a lie as well. I kid you not. Things were never really the same since then, but I was led to believe that we got past it. But last night I go and read a blog she wrote entitled "My first trip to Texas". What?! So you couldn't call a bitch and let me know you were in town? You were in the club too? My spot; doing the cupid shuffle? Were you really still mad all this time? I mean you could've just told me that instead of making it seem as if we were cool. I respect people get mad and I respect some people don't get over it either. Early dismissal; you can go home.
- Yo on some real shit, I'm not ready for a relationship. The thought of it makes my skin crawl. So giving me ultimatums will only cause me to hit the pavement and move on to the next. I don’t want any agreements, I don't want to make any promises. This is what it is (whatever that may be)...period. If you're looking for security behind a title, look elsewhere. I can tell you I'll be here for you in every way that I can; for as long as I can and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I see that already. Do I love you? Hm, I like you like a WHOLE lot. Do I think about you? Yeah, I do. Am I fucking somebody else? Stop asking me questions you don't want to know the answer to. You know how I do things, because it was laid out on the table from jump. I'm not going to miss your feelings with sugarcoated answers. So don't ask. Kill that relationship talk for the time being; you're making me feel like R. Kelly applying his back mole removal cream. Nervous than a muthafucka! This shit might work and it might not! I'm not ready to find out.
- Anyone have Windows Vista? Does it still have some glitches in the software? I JUST bought a new laptop and it keeps shutting down on me. $900 later; I don’t need that to be happening, AT ALL. I'm taking it back to the store today and if it is indeed this Vista crap, they can put Windows '98 on my shit, because I know that has been perfected as old as it is! I need my laptop for various reasons and I'd like my shit fixed now, please.
Besides the things I was T'd about last night; this was a good week. It went by really fast and I am glad of that. I learned that people will always have something to say about you no matter what you're doing in life. Stating that I'm so fresh you'll want to compete for it is an understatement. Bitches are doing THE MOST! There will always be somebody trying to drag your name in the dirt. I could literally be walking side by side; hand in hand with Jesus Christ Himself and still have somebody throwing rocks at both of us. Miss me with that! Untouchable, please believe me. "I can't feel your shots, because I'm way above your aim." Dig that.
I'm going to reverse this day into a more positive, focused and glorious one. I'm still smiling as always, because nothing can take that away. The scope suggested that I use my heart today and not my cool logic. Hm, logically speaking, I don't see that happening. Happy Friday people; have a great weekend.
Yes, yes ya'll it's Friday! The week just flew by for me and I am grateful of that. Today is going to be another great day. I still have a lot of work to do, but I got paid. So I won't complain today. It's seriously hot outside, but it is a very beautiful day. I'm sitting here listening to Pattie Labelle on the radio and she is cutting up. It's black music month, so I've really been more into music than what I normally am. Pattie Labelle being one of my favorite singers; still looking good and sounding spectacular. Get it Ms. Pattie!
So this week has been pretty good for me. I'm digging this transitional phase I'm going through and am embracing it with open arms. Instead of going further into my shell as I thought I might, I decided to try the opposite and come further out of it. It's kind of nice out here too. I'm meeting new people, making new friends, going on new adventures and really just loving life.
Aquarius - June 6, 2008
So this week has been pretty good for me. I'm digging this transitional phase I'm going through and am embracing it with open arms. Instead of going further into my shell as I thought I might, I decided to try the opposite and come further out of it. It's kind of nice out here too. I'm meeting new people, making new friends, going on new adventures and really just loving life.
Aquarius - June 6, 2008
You will find yourself working quite well with any group today, dear Aquarius. You will find that there is a greater connection between you and the people around you. Make sure, however, that you ground your relationship on something meaningful; otherwise, you may find that you have built a whole reality out of something that doesn't really exist. Be true to yourself and try not to get fooled by that which seems too good to be true.
I've realized that I was allowing people in my life to outshine me. I was okay with always taking the back burner and beating to their drum. Things that I wanted to do, I would put on hold until they were ready. There is none of that anymore. I've opened the door to invite new friends in, but I am being very careful with how I do so and how many I let in. I'm pretty reserved and don't like a whole lot of people around me as is. So I won't go overboard. I've been saying yes to those invitations that people have been extending to me for quite awhile now, but I was too caught up in the rapture of friends that I thought would be around forever. Now that they have decided to go their own way, I've realized that I've neglected so many and have really been missing out on a lot.
This weekend looks as if it will be a good one. I have a couple of movies to catch up on in the theatres. My co-worker invited me to go see Sex In The City tonight, and I might just have to break down and go see that. I was never a fan of the show and probably won't be a fan of the movie either, but I would like to see what all the hype is about. Plus my baby mama, J-Hud is in it! So that is reason enough for me to go and see it. I'm feeling a little frisky, so I just might take my good friend up on her offer as well and go to the club tonight. I haven't been in a few weeks so I think it'll be fun. Plus I could use a 151 punch, loll. In the words of Ms. Pattie, " Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir?" haha!
I do hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend!
TGIF! Hm, what to say about this week? Well, I'll put it in Internet terms; smmfh, rme, omg, lmfao, stfu, gtfo and WTF @ this week! I have had so many WTF moments this week, it's crazy. I mean moments that you just can't even do anything but shake your head and laugh about. I'm sure many people have had weeks like this. "If it ain't one thing, it's another!" I really don't know how to summarize all the things that have gone down this week and all of the things that I've learned. This blog will definitely be something that I am not; random…
- Happy as hell to have had Monday off this week; not so happy about having a flat tire Tuesday morning that needed to be repaired so I could make it to work by 7:30AM. WTF!
- Bank account over drafted with rent, electricity and phone bill due today. WTF!
- I don't know what it is about Texas drivers, but I've been cut off, ran off the road, flipped off, damn near side swiped all while trying to travel down the street to McDonald's. WTF!
- Working for a cable company part-time that everyone seems to hate with a passion, sucks ass! 4 different customers called in this week stating that they waited over 6 hours for the technician to show up for an installation. All 4 customers outside of their home see each one of their assigned technicians slow down in front of their homes long enough to write a note down and speed off! Customers later find out that the technicians have cancelled their install and declared the customer NOT AT HOME! Clearly all 4 customers were standing in the front yard! WTF!
- Why do some people just always have to be in competition? Do you really just have to have the last word that bad? Does it make you feel better if the last thing that came out of your mouth makes absolutely no sense at all? Bringing up shit from the past that has nothing to do with the situation at hand does not help plead your worthless case. WTF are you saying to me? Just shut up.
- Still floored about The New Kids On The Block getting back together after what seems like 50 years. WTF!
- Nobody reads my blogs. Blah, but a sistah shall write on!
- I have heard 17 different remixes to Lil' Wayne's Lollipop this week...WTF!
- I actually went an entire week without talking to my ex best friend. WTF and I'm actually okay with that?
- Why is the one mistake I made of befriending someone still haunting me? Why is my name STILL in this person's mouth? Please get over the fact that you were dismissed and leave me and my friends alone. You've done enough damage, trust me. Why am I on the verge of losing yet another friend behind this bullshit? Humph, I guess if "bullshit" can break a friendship apart, it wasn't that strong to begin with right? WTF ever...
- My monthly bitch is in town and it's the worse day to deal with whining, illiterate, senseless ass customers complaining about their cable being cut off; knowing that they haven't paid a bill since Dec. '07. Please beat it, I'm not in the mood for it today.
- Why am I getting calls from someone working behind a register at Home Depot all afternoon? I pick up and hear nothing by forklifts, banging ply wood, falling sheet rock, and cash register noises in the background. I get a 7 minute long voicemail with this shit going on. Please take your phone out of your apron while at work. Hello....KEY LOCK! Matter fact, lose my number; we don't talk anyway.
- I'm trying to win a party gift basket here at work and I put $13 down for 13 chances to win. Why did this son of a bitch come and put down $50? Then come to my desk, "Tamica dear, I have bad news. You won't be winning that party bucket. I just put down $50 smackers!" Please get out of my face, before my hand goes across your face 50 times. I'm bitter, because I wanted those damn Mike N Ike's out of the basket! Ugh!
- Why is everybody gay and pregnant? You know what? Never mind.
- Now here I am at work and I must've missed the Memo, because every one has taken called in today. I come in to a pile of about 50 - 60 files on my desk to bill. They can all kiss my ass today. As a matter of fact, I may go home sick for the afternoon.
Can we say REVERSED HAPPY HOUR?! I am for sure partaking in some strong alcoholic beverages tonight. I will drink away the cramps in my stomach, drink away the dumb asses that surround me all day everyday, drink away the sorrow of missing those who are obviously not coming back, drink away the fact that I will be broke next week. However, I will be drinking to the fact, that my bills are paid, drinking to the fact that I have two good jobs, drinking to the fact that I'm a strong independent woman who has so much love for herself that she can't be touched, drinking to the fact that June is finally here and that means its time for my yearly raise, and most definitely drinking to the fact that I can have a WTF week but still smile throughout the day!
I am more than happy to kiss this week goodbye and submerge myself into a very relaxing weekend ahead. For those who have suffered through a WTF week like I have; here is a toast to you! TGIF!!
America is definitely NOT free, but I'm not complaining because due to the fact that someone spread this rumor we got a 3 day weekend out of it! Anticipation of this weekend got me through my work week. I actually had a good week too.
I suffered through my little loneliness phase, but thank goodness I regained my sanity and I'm over that spell. I have learned in order to keep the spice in my life, I must roam into areas that I never thought about roaming before. It's okay to get out of my comfort zone at times. I plan to live a little bit more starting this weekend. I also learned that just because I grant someone with an all access pass to my heart doesn't mean they will physically be in my life forever. Absence truly does make the heart grow fonder. I've learned that everyone will not understand me, and me trying to force my logic, desires and beliefs onto them doesn't work. Sometimes I just need to shut up, take heed to the signs and learn when it's time to let go and let time do it's thing. Meanwhile, I have to continue to live life and let other's live their own. Great lessons this week, can't wait to see what I learn next week.
This weekend is going to be quite fun filled and eventful. After I get off work tonight, I plan on going out to what used to be my Friday night spot. I'm not even going to bother ringing up anyone to accompany me; I'm going by my damn self. Buy myself a couple martinis and enjoy my night. I know I'll run into more than a few people I know and kick it with them throughout the night.
Saturday I have some cleaning to do, but I also plan to squeeze in a little shopping before I have to go to work that night. I may just stay in Saturday night, I'm not sure yet. Usually I just wait and see what pops off, but if nothing does I always enjoy my time spent at home.
Sunday I'm going to a get together with some co-worker/friends. This is my first time hanging out with them outside the office and outside an occasional lunch here and there. This should be interesting. Of course for the most part I'm the only face of a different race in the office, so I know they way "they" party is something definitely outside of my norm, loll. They plan on getting a slip-n-slide as part of the festivities aside from drinking the night away and grilling up some chow.
This is the one that they want to get...
But this is probably what it'll probably end up being...
I will not be getting on the damn thing regardless. I want to go mingle, drink, eat and see exactly how long I can stand to be around, loll. If they start acting a fool, I am out of there. I want to actually come into work on Tuesday morning and be able to look these people in the eye. I can't stay late anyway, because I have date with my big Sis on Sunday night. She's supposed to be spending the remainder of the weekend with me. I'm going to try and talk her into spending the night at our parents house Sunday night. I don't have ANY food in my apartment, and I know exactly where to get the free food and the home cooked meals, loll. So as a matter of fact, whether she likes it or not, that is where we will be come Sunday night right on into Monday morning. My Dad usually BBQ's on Memorial Day, so I'll definitely be sticking around for that.
I can't wait for the weekend to start. I'm about to go into that mode right now! I wish everyone a safe and fun filled Memorial Day weekend! Do everything I WOULDN'T do!
TGIF!! I say that with the utmost sincerity and excitement! The last day of a hectic week. Hectic in so many ways, might I add. I'm sitting here re-tracing all of the thoughts, emotions and events that took place. Mentally, I was all over the place this week! My mind took a hike around the world and it took me through a lot of obstacles and emotional mazes. I didn't know just how much of a control freak I was until now. I've always had complete control over everything in my life, and when things don't go that way; oh boy. During this mental hike, I analyzed all the current issues that I didn't control that had my mind blown. Coming to grips with the fact that I can't control everything and that sometimes it is okay to lose control; i started to feel a little better. It was then that I found my peace zone and was finally able to exhale.
It's definitely time for new blessings in my life. It's impossible to receive those blessings when I have my my "junk" and other people's "junk" blocking them. I have a habit of taking the blame for other people's issues. This is definitely the case when it comes to close friends and family. To avoid confrontation and change in our relationship, I take the blame for everything and take complete control over the situation. I can't do that anymore. No matter how much I love a person, I can't be held responsible for their "junk". Tamica is guilty of alot of things, but shes not guilty of everything. Those things I am guilty of, I repent for those guilts and ask for forgiveness. I am facing the fears of change and learning to take a loss. I'm being truly grown and learning how to love people enough to let them go. In fact, I had to file alot things that occurred this week in my "let it go and let God" folder. When its all let go of and thrown upon Him, this makes room for those new blessings created for me. I declare this day to be the first day of the rest of my life. I truly am appreciative of the people in my life that has been there for me no matter what. I am not the friendliest person or the easiest person to get along with. Yet and still, those roots under my tree still keep me standing tall. They never break from underneath me. They never let something petty break our friendship apart. My best interest is in their heart, and I am so honored to have friends and family like this in my life.
I am ready to kick start this weekend. Sadly, I have to work tonight and tomorrow night, but that is alright. I have a date with my big sister tonight and we're going to spend some quality time with one another. I'm trying to get her on to this whole blogging thing. I know it'll be right up her alley. Although, not as many people read and comment on my blog as I'd like, but it's still enjoyable. I still plan on going back home this weekend to hang out with the parents. I haven't been to "church" in quite some time so Sunday is the day that I partake in a visit that is long over due.
I wish everyone a eventful and safe weekend ahead. It's a tad big gloomy here in Texas, but the sun is surely shining in my world!
It's definitely time for new blessings in my life. It's impossible to receive those blessings when I have my my "junk" and other people's "junk" blocking them. I have a habit of taking the blame for other people's issues. This is definitely the case when it comes to close friends and family. To avoid confrontation and change in our relationship, I take the blame for everything and take complete control over the situation. I can't do that anymore. No matter how much I love a person, I can't be held responsible for their "junk". Tamica is guilty of alot of things, but shes not guilty of everything. Those things I am guilty of, I repent for those guilts and ask for forgiveness. I am facing the fears of change and learning to take a loss. I'm being truly grown and learning how to love people enough to let them go. In fact, I had to file alot things that occurred this week in my "let it go and let God" folder. When its all let go of and thrown upon Him, this makes room for those new blessings created for me. I declare this day to be the first day of the rest of my life. I truly am appreciative of the people in my life that has been there for me no matter what. I am not the friendliest person or the easiest person to get along with. Yet and still, those roots under my tree still keep me standing tall. They never break from underneath me. They never let something petty break our friendship apart. My best interest is in their heart, and I am so honored to have friends and family like this in my life.
I am ready to kick start this weekend. Sadly, I have to work tonight and tomorrow night, but that is alright. I have a date with my big sister tonight and we're going to spend some quality time with one another. I'm trying to get her on to this whole blogging thing. I know it'll be right up her alley. Although, not as many people read and comment on my blog as I'd like, but it's still enjoyable. I still plan on going back home this weekend to hang out with the parents. I haven't been to "church" in quite some time so Sunday is the day that I partake in a visit that is long over due.
I wish everyone a eventful and safe weekend ahead. It's a tad big gloomy here in Texas, but the sun is surely shining in my world!
I am going to declare this past week as my "lazy week". I'm not too proud of that, but then again I'm not ashamed of it either. I took my vacation day yesterday and I loved it. I so graciously called into Comcast and told those suckers and I would not be slaving for them between my normal weekly hours of 5:00-9:00. Had I gone into work last night, I'm not sure how many people would still be Comcast customers once they got ahold of me and I'm not sure if I would still be a Comcast employee. My supervisor is vacationing in Italy anyway, so I wasn't really concerned about it. So all in all, my week was alright I suppose. I know that there is a lot of things that I could've gotten done, but when I'm in vacation mode; all else is a wrap.
At this moment I am here at work, dreadfully taking these calls one by one. It's not too bad, so I decided to take the time out to write my weekly re-cap blog. Usually these are written onFriday, but I was so into reading other blogs I straight up forgot to write my own. Although a day late; I still have the thoughts resting on my dome to be released. As I sit here and think about this "lazy week" of mine; I ask myself what is the real reason I get into this mode? I sense that my vulnerable phase lasted longer than anticipated. I psyche myself out at times infecting my mind with negative thoughts. Sometimes I feel as if there is so much more that I can and should be doing in life. Granted I work 16 hour days; I still feel as if I'm trapped in this whirlwind that will
never end at times. When will the cycle end? I make myself believe in my own invented hype that nothing has changed for me financially and that I'm over working myself for no reason at all. So I become rebellious and go into my "lazy" state. I slack on my grind big-time! I should have gone into work yesterday evening and owned that extra cash. Instead I called in thinking that it wouldn't matter one way or another. Sad, sad, sad.
I did a little bit of shopping yesterday and it wasn't really until then that I realized that I honestly have come along way since I started these long work days. Wish shopping, strolling through every section of my most favorite store on earth, Best Buy; I thought back to this time last year and remembered the sleepless nights I had, the hungry days and the over drafted bank account status. 2007 started off a tad bit rough for me. I was all alone in my first apartment for the very first time. It was nothing like dorm life away from home as I tricked myself into believing it would be. I was in a world with people I didn't know (or didn't want to know for that matter), in a not so safe neighborhood, miles away from my parents, all alone. This is when I really started to get closer to my best friend at the time. I depended on her mentally for a lot. She helped me get through some very hard times. My life was intensely altering at the beginning of 2007.
Now here I am; in a new place, in which I absolutely love, my faith is a lot stronger in God, I'm slowly beginning to except change as a good thing, I'm financially content (not stable, but content, loll.), I have two great jobs that have helped strengthen my patience with people. Everything is not going to be the way I'd like it to be, because of the simple fact that I'm human and I'll more than likely never be satisfied. There will always be something lacking in my life, due to the imperfections of myself and this world. I am anxious to jump head first into next week and tackle it at full force since I slacked on my grind this week.
In the meantime I am going to finish enjoying this lazy weekend of mine; watching movies on the high def. idiot box and catching up on some much needed sleep. I'm still undecided as to if I want to go to my parents house tomorrow or not. I just might go spend some time with the folks. I truly do dig our relationship now that I'm NOT at home, loll. I do hope everyone enjoys their
weekends and if you're having a lazy one like me, I know it'll be good.
T.[Nicole] signing off - Life is truly about attitude and perspective. Unfortunately this week my attitude was jacked up and my perspective was severely blinded.
At this moment I am here at work, dreadfully taking these calls one by one. It's not too bad, so I decided to take the time out to write my weekly re-cap blog. Usually these are written onFriday, but I was so into reading other blogs I straight up forgot to write my own. Although a day late; I still have the thoughts resting on my dome to be released. As I sit here and think about this "lazy week" of mine; I ask myself what is the real reason I get into this mode? I sense that my vulnerable phase lasted longer than anticipated. I psyche myself out at times infecting my mind with negative thoughts. Sometimes I feel as if there is so much more that I can and should be doing in life. Granted I work 16 hour days; I still feel as if I'm trapped in this whirlwind that will
never end at times. When will the cycle end? I make myself believe in my own invented hype that nothing has changed for me financially and that I'm over working myself for no reason at all. So I become rebellious and go into my "lazy" state. I slack on my grind big-time! I should have gone into work yesterday evening and owned that extra cash. Instead I called in thinking that it wouldn't matter one way or another. Sad, sad, sad.
I did a little bit of shopping yesterday and it wasn't really until then that I realized that I honestly have come along way since I started these long work days. Wish shopping, strolling through every section of my most favorite store on earth, Best Buy; I thought back to this time last year and remembered the sleepless nights I had, the hungry days and the over drafted bank account status. 2007 started off a tad bit rough for me. I was all alone in my first apartment for the very first time. It was nothing like dorm life away from home as I tricked myself into believing it would be. I was in a world with people I didn't know (or didn't want to know for that matter), in a not so safe neighborhood, miles away from my parents, all alone. This is when I really started to get closer to my best friend at the time. I depended on her mentally for a lot. She helped me get through some very hard times. My life was intensely altering at the beginning of 2007.
Now here I am; in a new place, in which I absolutely love, my faith is a lot stronger in God, I'm slowly beginning to except change as a good thing, I'm financially content (not stable, but content, loll.), I have two great jobs that have helped strengthen my patience with people. Everything is not going to be the way I'd like it to be, because of the simple fact that I'm human and I'll more than likely never be satisfied. There will always be something lacking in my life, due to the imperfections of myself and this world. I am anxious to jump head first into next week and tackle it at full force since I slacked on my grind this week.
In the meantime I am going to finish enjoying this lazy weekend of mine; watching movies on the high def. idiot box and catching up on some much needed sleep. I'm still undecided as to if I want to go to my parents house tomorrow or not. I just might go spend some time with the folks. I truly do dig our relationship now that I'm NOT at home, loll. I do hope everyone enjoys their
weekends and if you're having a lazy one like me, I know it'll be good.
T.[Nicole] signing off - Life is truly about attitude and perspective. Unfortunately this week my attitude was jacked up and my perspective was severely blinded.
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